wardah anak jamil

its not funnyy..fuck it

2012-02-17T17:56:00.002+08:00

i've not been my self this few days..i dont know what in my head anymore..cannot sleep, cannot do anything..nak masuk kerja pon kalau ikut perassan tak nak!!!

check poket seluar ada kunci....hum..balik rumah la..memang dah dekat 2-3 minggu duduk bilik nih rase tak best..rase mcm sedey.lonely..takde purpose...sekarang ni apetah lagi..tdo pon kat sofa..jejak kaki masuk bilik pon tak, mandi pon guna toilet kat luar ..

sebelum keluar tgk bilik tue...rasa sebak je.....apetah lagi feature wall bilik tu memang ade accesories rantai panjang2 tergantung kat dinding.. hum..tutup pintu, kunci sebelum air mata mengalir lagi..

sampai kat grill, keluarkan kunci dalam poket, rupenye kunci motor...dahla..memang tgk takde modd..tak pasal2 trus menangis...kol anis tak angkat...tak tahu nak buat ape...number sume takde...henphone da pecah..semua benda penting ade dalam tuh..kenangan banyak sgt dalam tu..:(

now stuck dekat rumah sorang2 tak bole nak buat ape2...hummm...nape la allah duga ak macam ni..lepas satu, satu lagi...

tunggu je la anis balik..dia kata dia akan singgah rumah sebelum balik kelantan..

pahit-manis

2012-02-14T17:18:00.001+08:00

few days from today, i have planned a perfect goodbyes.. i've got all my notes ready and plans are set. The sweetest goodbye in my life history. I have been preparing mentally and physically for this.

dinner, and all the things that you love, the macaroons is already booked..i will move out , already found the place. I want the last night to be magical, a hugs that warms my soul the last kiss that will make me cry in vain.aku nak hari terakhir kita sempurna, ak ingin perpisahan manis...manis untuk kamu dan manis untuk aku

Tapi kita hanya merancang , tuhan yang menenetukan, tak sangka ak terkejut dan terkilan macam ni punye rupe, semua yang ak plan satu hape tak berjaya..sigh..Things are out of control after all, yesterday night, a huge fight occur. I cried the whole day and have not yet sleep untill today. Been keeping my self busy with alot of things so i wont remember this.

You are my worst nightmare and bestest dreams, u brings the best and the worse in me, i was busy living in the past that i cant see the present. People change and are best to be apart...i was ready to let go..tapi bila betul2 dah jadi, sakit dia tuhan je tahu, bila janji sampai bila2 tinggal air mata? mungkin persahabtan pon ade limit masa...

aku masih tinggal di masa lalu, berharap selagi bertahan mungkin mampu kembali seperti dulu.tapi semua tipu..harapan palsu...ingat lagi kali pertama kita bertemu?? the first week mase baru2 knal..sangat bahagia buat aku :)

remember all those text messages? semua benda nak cerita? makan ke belum, makan lauk ape? pegi mane? semalam mimpi ape? macam mana kelas? tadi buat ape? boleh berbual apa sahaja..dari luar hingga kedalam jiwa..we would talk in the middle of the night..bergayut kat phone berjam jam..bila dah takde topik nak berbual, google lyric lagu dan nyanyi? ingat tak?ingat tak berapa top up untuk seminggu? hp ak meloncat 5 kali ganda...tapi hati gembira..tuhan jodohkan ak dengan dia, sahabat untuk aku cerita apa saja..

ingat tak saat pertama kau balik rumah ak? ak balik rumah kamu? kau masak untuk ak? ingat kita pegi jalan2, makan sushi sampai tinggi pinggan dari paras kepala, tgk masterchef sambl terliur? ingat tak kamu masak ayam salut serbuk roti masa di rumah ku?? ingat tak ayam penyet kolej ngan nescafe ais? chicken chop ak dan lamb chop untuk kamu?

saat takde sape bole kalah kan kita, saat bersyukur tuhan temukan ak dengan dia, saat ak tahu dia sahabat selamaya? saat ak janji ak akan ada untuk dia..saat ak janji ak akan jaga dia..

mungkn kamu dah lupe, tapi ak masih lagi tinggal di msa lalu, bila ak sedih kau peluk ak terus gembira, bila tak jumpe rinduuuu ggiilllaaa, sanggup datang jauh2 semata nak bersua? ingat tak? terpacak malam2 buta?

ape saje? sedaya mampu ak, ak cuba untuk lakukan? janji kau ada, main kaler2 kuku? first time org kaler kuku aku? ingat warna rambut? kamulah kali pertama..ingat senyum ketawa kamu bila menang main kad??..hahhaa..ye memnag ak loser pon..

ingat tak kamu? mase aku demam dulu? kamu jaga ak sampai tak tdo malam? kamu tak keluar sebab jaga ak...tapi mase tue ak perlekehkan kamu, tak percaya kamu...eleh poyo je..konon jaga...rumate ak cerita kamu betul tak tdo satu malam jaga ak..baru ak tau ak salah.tapi ak tak penah mintak maaf pon..ak diam kan aje..ingat tak waktu tue?? ak terharu gila, tapi tak tahu nak cakap ape..

Ingat tak dulu? kita naik motor pegi shah alam?? baju habis basah.., jumpe kawan kamu...kamu tulis kat twitter basah kuyup tapi gembira dapat jumpa dua orang tersayang..Hati ak da bunga2..terus cakap sahabat selamanya, tapi ak diam kan aje...tak pernah cakap ape2..

Ingat tak dulu..menjerit malam2 buta main karoke party? sedaya upaya nak ikut tone kononnye..hahha..:)..ingat tak dulu kamu asak ayam penyet goreng bread crumb? sedap sampai sherry buat lagi minggu depannye..

ingat kali pertama kau marahkan ak? sebab ak tak pergi panjat gunung broga sama kamu, maafkan aku, kaki ak accident sejak dulu dah tak mampu nak panjat bukit , memang salah ak, sebab tak teman kamu, ak tak rase ak diperlukan tapi ak lupe ak janji nak teman kamu ape saja..

ingat macaroon? ak pusing satu KL untuk kamu, pujuk kamu sebab kecilkan hati kamu, kamu makan dengan penuh suka, masa tu saya gembira sangat..kamu sgt suka macaroon rupenye ye..

kamu tahu hadiah paling bermakna bagi saya??ingat tak voice record kamu?? ak tak tahu lagu ape? setiap kali buka dan dengar...tapi satu hari ak cube dengar dah takda..kamu tahu sbetapa sakitnya hati saya?? aku menangis bergenang air mata?? kering dalam tidur tak lena..saya cuma ada kenangan lama masa dulu, sebab sekarang dah tak mcam dulu...saya cube ambil hati kamu, tapi kamu dah tak perlukan saya..kamu dah benci saya

say kerja macam org gila, supaya boleh plan semua benda sama2..sepanjang hidup saya tak pernah komited terhadap kerja $ $ . tak kisah la asal kita sama2 boleh gembira..melalak macam2 negara..banyak gila saya dah plan..kamu tahu?? buku kecil hitam saya dah padat dengan peta.

kamu..Kamu tau sakitnya hati saya? bila kamu mengungkit begitu rupa?semua benda nak berkira? ugut nama keluarga? Brapa lama kamu sudah hidup dengan saya?? tak kenal perangai besepah saya?? kenapa sekarang baru nak bicra?? sebab kamu dah tak sama...kamu dah tak sama..hati kamu sudah benci saya...

Bila org cakap macam2 rupe, kamu tak pernah back up kita, kamu larikan diri dari saya..kamu tahu sedihnya saya..bila kamu yang keji saya?? Kamu tahu saya macam mana? kamu tahu siapa saya..kamu kawan saya..saya sudah banyak berabis masa, berabis tenaga..kamu juga pon sama....

Kamu ingat lagi kali pertama kamu larikan diri dari saya?? saya menangis macam org gila, tak mampu dah hidup di dunia, saya cari kamu semula, Bila tiba masa saya, lari keliling dunia, kamu juga cari saya..kamu tahu betapa gembira, setiap kali bertemu semula?? Takde kata menggambarkannya....gembira tak tercapai akal dunia..setiap kali juga berdoa, tuhan kekalkan kami berdua..

Kamu, cuba kamu kira?? setiap saat laut kita bergelora?? berapa kali kapal kita hancur bagai nak gila? Sudah tiba masanya...Laut tenang semula..Dan mungkin juga masa untuk kita bersara..masing2 pulang ke darat..membawa haluan tidak sehala...agar kekal tenang selamanya..walaupun saya tahu saya akan rindu udara masin laut sana, saya akan bergenang mengingat setiap saat kita, tak mungkin sama jika dicari semula..kamu yang pertama selain keluarga, kamu yang petama selain saudara, kamu sentiasa di hati saya..tak mungkin saya lupe..kamulah yang terbaik pernah saya ade..

Saya tahu saya harus pergi sebab kenangan pahit lebih banyak dari manis..banyak pendam dari kata..bayak marah dari bicara..semua dah tak sama..dulu kamu pernah kata-semua benda ada limit masa..tak akan kekal selamanya.-.ak marah sama kau...kita akan kekal..janji saya setia tiada tara...tapi rupanya saya yang salah..memang benar ada limit masa..naifnya saya..hinanya saya..saya sangka tiada apa boleh pisahkan kita..

maafkan saya, kerana limit masa kita yang singkat...tapi cukup seksa kan kamu mungkin..cukup sakitkan kamu mungkin....maafkan saya

semoga kamu bahagia dalam apa jua yang kamu lakukan sahabat.. dari jauh ak akan setia, melihat dari mata saja...senyuman mengukir melihat kamu berjaya....

p/s- kerana saya terlampau sayangkan dia, tuhan tolong bantu saya...tolong jaga diri dia..amiin

part 2

2012-02-10T13:53:00.000+08:00

now arriving in hatnyai airport with 3 hours to spare...so sit there and just relax waiting for the flight. The flight was delayed so it makes the wait to painful 4 hours.
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arriving in bangkok-day 1

from the airport, taking the BTS( ala ala LRT la gamaknye) , with interchange to 3 trens to get to saladeong, sriwoeng district. first night stay at a lodge called take a nap, beautiful guest house with really frenly staff..

Arriving and relaxing for 3o minutes and decided to eat , halal restaurant..there is cilipadi restaurant, malaysian owned the receptionist inform. OK..thats not far around 10 minutes walk..hell it is...walking round and round and round found nothing but sushi bar and few local restarants, after almost 1 whole day without food i am eady to eat anything, but luckily there is an auntie, godsend from heaven, i have no idea her name, she was wearing tudung, so after asking about any halal restaurant nearby, she reply back in malay.." truly a miracle" in the heart of bangkok and in the midst of thousands peole, how could it possible to encounter her. She speak malay with loghat utara sikit2. she said her parents was malaysian but she was borned and raised in thailand. We walk to cilipadi around 20 minutes walk(**&&*^&*%**) and it was closed. i am so damn hungry you all, i stopped for jagng bakar, to fill my stomach that was singging evey damn song it can sing. The angel autie, is so fit, she is 57 years old, i gasped like seriously, she looks so young, she keep asking wether i can walk, i said yes and gasping for air, she walks so fast,and i am younger than her but sumpah rase nak pengsan! after about 45 minutes and all the 3 restaurants are closed, she brought the empty stomach to an indian restaurant. Briyani!!, briyani pon beriyani la..i had a bryani rice and mineral water, The auntie that is so nice didit even want to join and eat. she insist to go home. I feel sospity now she have to walk all the way back to the train station. She said its ok, she will take bus and its very near. GOD BLESS HER, so nice..

the best mineral water in the world-oxygenated water only for 10baht, and sumpah refresing gile

After a full stomach, the decision was to go to the siam paragon shopping complex. And the most shocking thing is that to get in the shopping mall, there is a metal detector complete with police on either side..with horror look n my face, cos i was just wearing this rolled up jeans , tshirt,sling bag and slipper..damn i feel so out of place, i never feel th eneed to dress up to go to some shopping mall..erkkk..

after walking around and comparing prices, the brands here is relatively cheap, a coach shoe will cost u approximately of 300 plus only and all good brands are cheaper, except the perfume is expensive, crocs is the same and swatch is a tad more expensive in Thailand. Darn- i could use a new watch, well swatch is affordable swiss made watches and fyi swiss-made watch is the best rank in the entire world..so bboohhooo for those who think that its so damn not good, u get to look at the quality not the price.

after all that, i drool over jim thompson bed sheet that cost around 1600baht, giving out my entire best not to spend my money on that. If u guys do not know who is jim thompson please google, he one of the best designers, the jim thompson musuem art gallery is also only located around 3 minutes walk of my guest house. yiihaaa..

After drooling on so many things that i know i cannot afford to splurge i take a pit stop at starbuck and went to patpong night market by tuk tuk.., more affordable and can bargain, i get my self all the sourvenirs here, spending almost 1000 bahts, on tshirsts, accessories, keychains and book marks. Around the patpong maret there is a whole lot of strip clubs and one street full of gay bars. gentlements, this is my first time seeing half naked women on a table pole dancing, u didint even have to come inside to see the disgusting thing, just take a look at the left and peek, left are strip clubs, on your right is patpong night market..*yaayy*

then its time to call it off, i am so damn tired, i have no idea why itts eaither the 10 hour bus ride, and 3 hours flight , i am so drained that i can fall to sleep on the streets. Go back at the hotel cant wait for breakfst which is charged by the guest house and exploring bangkok city b4 off to kanchanaburi..what is in kanchanaaburi?? well that is another story, anther day..

...........end...for..now

starting off-going off-goodbye

2012-02-09T18:18:00.002+08:00

in the middle of the night i found myself alone in a bus all the way to hatnyai, the bus is so damn cold and the bus conductor gave me a blanket to keep me warm. with just a map with me and nothing or any idea on how to get around. I was supposed to get a plane to bangkok the following morning but have no idea how to get to the airport and i do not have enough baht in my pocket, i have around 3000 baht only.the rest is in malaysian ringgit..But i really need this escape. running away for awhile, get my head straight.

The night goes on really fast, after dozing off a couple of times, the 10 hours journey is done. i arrive exactly 9.00 am thailand time at the bus stop. Crazily i am not at all in a bus station, i arrived at the small town of hatnyai with just rows of shops.There was a guy sitting next to me on the bus, we talked a little on the way, he get down the bus and asked me where to go, airport i reply, he looked at me and spoke some thai with the local taxi driver with some words like sister, take care of my sister almost like a threat. he turned to me and said 400 baht all the way to airport, about 30 minutes. He sked me wether i have small change.well obviously not! i only have 1000 bahts in my pocket. He grabbed my hand, pull me to the side and take out roll of thai bhat.he gave me 1000 small change in exchange for my big notes and asked me to put all my money in my wallet all the time, do not show to anybody. He walked me to the taxi stand and walked off. he gave me his number and said to call him, if there is anything. call me abang yob he said. I said ok.

He mouthed a few words like sister and take care again to the taxi driver before leaving, but the taxi driver asked him to come along, he was on the taxi half way and get down , he said he have to meet someone, he cant follow me.he said sorry, i acknowlwdge. The taxi driver cannot speak englishh at all, sign language like fly and watch and time and good is how we talk. It took 30 minutes to reach the airport and by that time it was 10 am thailand time. Stupidly i have no idea that thailand are 1 hour earliear than KL, therefore i arrived at the airport almost 3 hours too early. i carried my bag. and into the airport to the nearest coffee shop, I looked at my bag,inside i know that they are 2 t-shirts, 1 long pant, some undies and 2 breads and 1 mineral water. and 1 week over plans..am i crazy???

to be continueeee....

heppi besday ann

2012-02-05T12:07:00.001+08:00

form cybercafe in phi phi town..wishing happy birthday to my sayang..

ann farhanah baharuddin...

have a great birthday babe!!

sayangssss sambut ramai2 jommm!

i need to run away

2012-01-30T20:58:00.000+08:00

bilal: what the hell are you doing?

me: what?

bilal: why are you behaving like this? why dont you go home?

me: there is no one waiting 4 me at home.

bilal: why are u like this?

me: im going away

bilal: what?? where?

me: somewhere..i will turn in my 24 hour resignation letter.i need some time to think. i am running away.

bilal: from what???

me: everything...i dont know how ..or where..but im set! i am leaving. i already pack.

bilal: how long?

me: one week.maybe.i dun know..tomorrow after salary, i get my passport and buy ticket to anywhere..

bilal: alone?

me: yes..dun worry i'll make frens on the road..i really have to do this..

bilal: ........ speechless.... fine then, do whatever you want!

p/s- am i mad? but i cant stand here for so long..its been stressing me out.. i cant do my job properly, i am not peace and calm anywhere i go..maybe if i go far away things will get better..i have more space to think..then i am good...goodbye people. see you when i see you. ..

awan nano

2012-01-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

Lihat ke arah sana
Serakan warna dan berarakan
Awan

Pabila terik panas
Segera hadirnya memayungi diri

Pabila kau dahaga
Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan kasihnya
Pabila kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri
Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihnya
Kasih tiada banding
Setia tiada tara

Bagaimanapun jua

i belive

2012-01-29T08:05:00.001+08:00

what dosent kill you, only make you stronger

nothing wont do it

2012-01-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

They say that time
Heals everything
But they don't know you
And the scars you bring

'Cos you left a jagged hole
And I can't stand it anymore
I'd erase my thoughts
If only I knew how
Fill my head with white noise
If it would drown you out
Kill the sound
If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you're hurting me
From inside of my head
I can't take it I can't take it

I'm gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose my mind

Praying won't do it
Hating won't do it
Drinking won't do it
Fighting won't knock you out
Of my head

Hiding won't hide it
Smiling won't hide it
Like I ain't tried it
Everyone's tried it now
And failed somehow
And if you know
How do you get up from an all time low
I'm in pieces
Seems like peace is
The only thing I'll never know
How do you get up
Get up
Cos driving won't do it
Flying won't do it
Denying won't do it
Crying won't drown it out

monster

2012-01-28T22:02:00.001+08:00

You were my conscienceSo solid, now you're like waterAnd we started drowningNot like we'd sink any fartherBut I let my heart goIt's somewhere down at the bottomBut I'll get a new oneAnd come back for the hope that you've stolen

I'll stop the whole world, I'll stop the whole worldFrom turning into a monster, eating us aliveDon't you ever wonder how we survive?Well, now that you're gone, the world is ours

I'm only humanI've got a skeleton in meBut I'm not the villainDespite what you're always preachingCall me a traitorI'm just collecting your victimsAnd they're getting strongerI hear them calling
(Calling, calling)

I'll stop the whole world, I'll stop the whole worldFrom turning into a monster, eating us aliveDon't you ever wonder how we survive?Well, now that you're gone, the world is ours

Well, you thought of strength and solutionsBut I like the tensionAnd not always knowing the answersBut you're gonna lose itYou're gonna lose it

I'll stop the whole world, I'll stop the whole worldFrom turning into a monster, eating us aliveDon't you ever wonder how we survive?Well, now that you're gone the world

I'll stop the whole world, I'll stop the whole worldFrom turning into a monster, eating us aliveDon't you ever wonder how we survive?Well, now that you're gone, the world is ours

set fire to the rain-adele

2011-12-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

"Set Fire To The Rain"

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cry
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When laying with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cry
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Where I felt something die
'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for yea
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cry
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Where I felt something die
'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time, oh, oh!

Let it burn
Oh oh ohhhh
Let it burn
Oh oh ohhhh
Let it burn
Oh oh ohhhh

sekarang

2011-12-24T01:00:00.002+08:00

i am so happy..now i know my place, my frens, my life and future..terima kasih tuhan...no more emotional attachment..:)

just to let u know

2011-11-23T23:54:00.001+08:00

im ur stupid fren who always is there for you..

im someone who love u

im someone who misses u when i dont see u more than 24 hours

im someone who always try my best to take care of u

im just some who gets hurt when u're hurt

im someone who dont like seeing u doing something that will hurt urself

im someone who would try my hardest to help u

im someone who paranoid about you

im someone who is over protected about you

i love u and i miss u..

im done trying..i try, but its hard..the cut is too deep..

gud luck sayang..im sorry..i give up...i knw u have too..:(

kerana dia adalah sahabat

2011-10-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

selama ni mungkin ramai org tanye ak soklan yang sama..

kenapa dia?? kenapa kau masih disini?? kenapa kau tak boleh nak pergi, kenapa kau masih kesah? kenapa kau paranoid sgt?? kenapa? kenapa?? kenapa?? kenapa kau bodo..

ak nak jawab semua soalan itu dengan satu puisi..ak ambil dari ikin, tapi benar2 menyentuh ak..

Puisi Sebab Dia Adalah Sahabat.

Dia adalah yang Allah beri kepadaku,

walau yang mencarinya adalah aku,
maka dia adalah hadiah,
mustahil sekadar dilempar begitu.

Biarlah dia berbicara hanya sedikit,
Biarlah dia berjauhan,
Biarlah kadangkala ada salah sangkaan,
Biarlah ada waktu dia melukakan,

Sebab dia adalah sahabat,
maka aku tidak pernah menghiraukan.

Mengira bahagia-bahagia yang wujud bila dia ada di sisi,
itu sahaja sudah melebihi dunia dan segala isi.

Kalau dia tiba-tiba menyimpang,
aku adalah yang akan menghulurkan tangan dan tidak berjauhan,
Kalau aku adalah yang tersungkur,
aku akan segera bangkit agar dia tidak kususahkan.

Sebab dia adalah sahabat,
dan aku tahu sahabatku adalah manusia,
maka aku hormati kekurangan yang ada,
dan aku besar-besarkan kelebihannya,

Hanya iman yang mampu melestari hubungan ini,
mengekstensi hingga ke syurga nanti.
Sebab dia adalah sahabat,
mustahil aku mahu berada di syurga tanpa dia di sisi.

picture says it all

2011-10-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

thank you.

fun and happy week

2011-10-14T15:43:00.001+08:00

why??

so much activities..book fest, mandi air terjun, titiwangsa, melepak, i found a new nasi ayam stall yang sedap, char kuey teow yang sedap..nyummmyyy...

convocation, heppy day..sayangs, sgt terharu korang datang..i cant believe..nor pon same...i cant believe u come dear sister..anis too for coming.

all and all, such an enjoyable week..be going back to home sweet home..:)..mak dah bising...salahkan sharp dia yang tak bagi ak balik awal2..hehhee..so...goodbye everybody..be coming back again....

im going to spend the whole day watching astro sambil tunggu arda balik kelas..lepas maghrib mau gerak balik seremban..:)

when u spend all ur energy and time

2011-10-14T00:17:00.001+08:00

yup..presents..gifts and the thing that u gave to someone..it actually required alot of thinking and time to get the perfect presents..something that capture their heart, something that last, things that they can keep and everytime they look at it they will think of u..at least for those who appreciate..:)

its not about the price, its bout the tot, even a simple greeting card can mean the world to someone, sumtyme, the fact that u wud be there in somebody else special day is a great present already..alahh, u guys know what i mean..

So, today was definitely tiring day, tiring but awesome day spend with my amazing beautiful frens..madeehah rasid, dibah supposedly, mai, nur, adda and sharp..

yes..today bangun awal...konon nak men kuda kat titiwangsa but tak bukak..dengan hampanya..me and mac d when to the big bad wolf book festival..sgt best banyak gila buku, actually ak dah pegi..but cos mac d nak cari buku c++ for dummies, so..pegilah...and sudenly remembered to buy something tuk adda..cos 2-3 hari ni dudk umah dia, and mac d cadangkan untuk belikan buku new moon cos dia takde buku tue, uhmm..bagus gak..so kami pon amik buku tue tuk arda, nak cari twilight tuk lengkapkan collection dia, tapi takde plak...so maybe next time, ak belikan lah..plus birthday dia dah dekat..:)

and for dbah, sian kat dia..banyak sgt masalah, nak kasi something yang boleh wat dia melompat..ak try cari complete guide to drawing tuh, cos dia suke melukis tapi takde...so ak belikan satu buku kanak2 yang sgt comeyl..hehehe..dbahh!! comel gile..takkn ade org yang akan bagi ko benda cm2 kecuali ak...huhu

anyway, pastuh amek gamba konvo kat UM, makan kat kolej 11, semayang jap, anta macd balik shah alam, ak balik bukit jalil, keluar beli makanan untuk sharp with nur and mai (sharp demam, cian dia..) now nak tdo!!..ngantuk sehhh..penat gilerr...

ARDA, gud luck on ur master and happey earlyy besdayyy...:)

p/s-dba punye sgt comeyl..so nantila..hehehe..surprisee!

nightmare

2011-10-12T08:26:00.000+08:00

ak tak penah plak mimpi yang ak ingat, jarang nak mimpi ngarut2..tapi semalam sumpah takot giler..

ak tdo ats katil dba,sorang2 kat bilik, org lain semua kat bwah..adik dia si nisfu tue pon tade..

yang peliknye ak mimpi ak ingat, mane penah ak ingat wei mimpi ak..makin lama makin clear..citer dia camni..melibatken sejenis makhluk allah laknatullah..ak tak nak citer la makhluk aper..kalau ak bagitau..kofem korang stop bace, tutup laptop!..takot gak..

ak tau benda tue ade, tapi ak tak penah nampak, sebab ak takot.,yang lebih pelik actually benda tue ade tuan, org yang jaga benda tue ak kenal..member ak..tapi ak tak nampakla muke sape..satu hari ak ajak la member ak tue keluar, sebab ak nak jumpe dia..so ak kata jangan bawak benda tue, tinggal..ak takot..dia jawab ok..then ak tunggu..bila dia sampai benda laknatullah tue ade kat belakang dia..

ak pon menjerit la...mintak tolong..pastuh ade org tolong tutup mata aku..org lain, member ak tue tgk je..tapi ak tak marah pon, ak mintak tolong ak tak nak tgk dah..dia kata dah tajde..so ak bukak mata, ak nampak..ade lagi cume posisi lain..kalau tadi berdiri skang ni dia bukan halau dia sorok je..macam kat bawah katil, tapi ak nampak kaki, ak pon ape lagi menjerit la lagi..then ade org tutup mata ak, org lain..dia still wat bodo.tapi ak tak marah..3-4 kali ak mintak tolong dia cakap ok dah takde..bila bukak mata ade lagi cume lain posisi..and ak dapat rse cam dia tak kesah..padahal ak dah takot gila..menggigil..then ak nampak macm dia senyumm..so ak pon terjagalah

sumpah wei..dahlah ak takot benda tue..3-4 kali ak tersedar..ak jerit nama dibah..tapi dibah tak dengar sebab dia kat bawah..then ak tertido..setiap kali org tutup mata ak sedar.dan org yang tutp mata ak tuh, org lain2..member ak la..tapi ak tak nampak muke...then tdo balik..sambung lagi..nightmare sungguhhh!!!..apetah..pelik betul..mimipi mainan syaitan la nie..sebab ak rushing balik nak semayang asar tapi tak sempat..ak da penat..so ak baring jap sebab isyak masuk lambat lagi 8 suku.dalam kul 8 baru nak maghrib...last2 tetido..memang 9.45 baru sedar..habis maghrib aku!..

nak balik bukit jalil malam tuh, ak salam mak diba...dia tanye tak takot ke malam2 nek moto..ak jawab la takde ape..atas moto ak tetibe teringat, ak ade mimpi something..makin lama makin clear ak ingat..sampai umah arda..ingatkan nak cter kat arda..sekali tgk dia wat assenmen..so terus mek bantal...tutp muke, tdo!!..takot gile wei..

what a day..---dating ngan dba..:)

2011-10-11T14:58:00.005+08:00

harini bagun awal gile...pas subuh terus tak leh tdo..men twitter, mandi capai beg capai wallet, gerak UM, pulang kan balik barang dia...ak paling suke sapu tgn tuh, takpe..penat ak simpan dan jaga...biarlah dia amek, kalau dia tak nak, buang je la..it dosent mean anything to her anyway.entah2 dia sendiri yang bagi tak ikhlas...im the one that is stupid after all..

dah terawal plak sampai KL, then pegi jabatan men internet..kul 9 gerak pegi ofis..then setel pukul 2 sengah..melayan zatie aina..mesej2 ngan dia, haish tensen sgt ke syg??? ak pon tak tau nak tolong macam mana...tabah je lah, nanti ade rezeki la tu..takpe, ak tak marah pon la..nape la bila ak mesej semua ingat ak marah? kasar sgt ke?? ak ade je kat sini nak dgr..pape nanti cari ak lg k cyg..uhmm..nantii ak senang skit, ak pegi melaka tgk ko la...rindu gak, tak sempat amik gamba time konvo hritue..sambil layan zatie layan dibah..dibah tensen ngan mak dia..huhuhu..biase la tuh, ak pon kekadang tensen gak ngan mak ak...satu hari tak makan, dari malam tadi lapar,so ak pon ape lagi, alang2 pegilah mintak sedekah kat umah dibah..hak hak..sedap..takdenye jadi bodoh tensen sampai tak makan cam dulu.....sambung balik cter diba, ak pon nak culik dia, have fun skit, kasi cool darah panas dia..

jadi plannye adelah ingin membawa diba menyejukkan darah dia kat kemesah..yes baby, mandi air terjun..huhuhuhuhu...nikmat..hari pon tgh panas..ak pon dah lama tak mandi air terjun..skang nak pegi wat sandwich..jap gi keluar daripada air, konfem lapar!!..huhuhu..:)..pas zuhur kita gerak ek dibahhh!!! jommm cepat siapp!!!

then lepas mandi konon nak men kuda...tapi tutup, so jalan2 kat tasik titiwangsa,borak2..masalah masalh..meroyan dah diba..takpe2 sabau ye sabau..

waa..nak men kuda..:(..bile entahnye nak pegi..demmm..:(

p/s- gi umah dba, dba still keep the paper bag and wrapping for her las 2 years besday yang kitorang bagi..:)..huhu...now that, is overwhelming...sumpah rase nak peluk ko kuat2..

in the end

2011-10-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

in the end..all things good are for good people and everythings bad are for bad people..u are worth more than that pigs!.u deserve more that that worthless chicken shit!..u are not a toy, u are not something that can be used up..haishh..i dun know to fell sad or angry or annoy..now im just t.i.r.e.d (T-ticked off, I-irritated ,R-ready to walk away, E-extremely annoying, D-doned!)

yes..im tired..now im going out..

rememberrrr..dont date or keep a loser bf..

2011-10-10T11:03:00.005+08:00

p/s-pigs dont change!

Don't date a loser or keep a loser boyfriend!

Your family or friends dislike him
Your family and friends are able to see warning signs that someone in the relationship can't see (or will ignore). Beware if everyone's telling you he isn't as great as you think he is. They aren't being mean-- they are being honest, and unlike your judgment, theirs is not clouded by the emotions of infatuation.

Wants sex quickly
Did he try to get physical within only a few days or weeks of knowing you? Is sex something he pressures you about? Does he become annoyed or say you don't love him if you won't put out? You definitely need to drop this guy! A guy who wants to use you as a sex toy is not one you want to build a stable, long-term relationship with.
And if he pressures you, is abusive to you, or uses sex as a tool to make you guilty or control the relationship, you should get rid of him as quick as possible.

He's got bad stories or reputation
Have you heard bad stories from you friends? Are there people who think he's crazy, aggressive, or a womanizer?
It may not just be from others; often, a loser boyfriend will tell stories that show his character-- stories where he was violent, rude, hurt other people, was lazy, or immoral. The fact that he tells those kind of stories not only tells you that he's done bad things-- but that he is proud of them!

'Loves' you too quickly
Guys that fall in love fast-- also fall out of love fast. If he's shallow, he'll be quick about telling you how much he loves you-- even if you've not been dating long.
Some abusive men will say "I love you" to try to trap a women into a relationship. Telling you they love you too quickly is a bad sign that he's either shallow and doesn't know what true love is (which can take months or years to form, after both partners know each other), or he's trying to hook you so you won't leave.
A normal person will wait a good amount of time before they commit or love another person.
This type of loser guy may want to move in with you or marry you in a matter of weeks!

Lacks effort
He doesn't seem to put much work into the relationship and your happiness. He doesn't call you back, he might forget important dates like your birthday. He may buy you presents that are cheap, thoughtless, or unwrapped, so he can say he gets you gifts without putting any effort into it. He may not take you out to eat, or put much thought into what makes you happy.
A lot of losers are simply lazy when it comes to a relationship. If they don't put effort into the relationship now, they won't later, either.

Abusive To Others
Does he constantly get in fight with waitresses and service people? Does he suffer from road rage? Does he break or throw things when he gets angry? Is he abusive to animals? Does he make demeaning comments about women? Does he constantly blow up or pick fights with friends/family?
These are all bad signs, and this is often how a physically abusive relationship starts.
It's a huge warning sign if he's nice to you but rude and aggressive to others. As soon as the "honeymoon" period wears off-- within a few months to a year-- that's how he will be treating you.
It's an old saying that you should watch how someone treats service people to see how you will be treated in the future; and it's generally true. A guy's attitude about women will not change-- if he treats women badly, he will treat you badly later in the relationship.
Physically Violent
If he breaks your things when he's angry, or ever shoves, hits, or hurts you-- you need to dump him immediately!
Men that are violent may start by breaking things or shoving you first, but it can quickly escalate, in some cases even into murder. Do not put up with ever being put in a situation where you could be harmed or killed.
Isolates You
A loser guy will resent you hanging out with your friends or family, and try to keep you away from them. He may not have many interests outside of the relationship, or he may not want YOU to have interests outside the relationship.
Paranoid or Controlling
Does he ask where you've been? Check your cell phone calls or emails? Grill you if you talk to someone of the opposite sex? Ask you where you were if you weren't home?

Some losers can get paranoid to the point of insanity-- checking through your garbage, spying on you, going through your things, or calling you constantly and yelling at you if you don't answer.
They may attempt to control your life, telling you where you can go, who you can hang out with, what you can wear, what you can talk about in public, how to behave, etc.
Some loser guys are overly controlling, or are jealous to the point of being ridiculous. Someone who loves you should trust you and allow you to be yourself.

Alcohol, Drugs, or Porn is his idea of fun
If he is unable to enjoy life and prefers to do drugs/drugs/porn instead of having real interests or hobbies, that's a sign you won't be able to have a happy or good relationship with him, either.
And if he's into porn, it's a sign he's not able to enjoy a normal sexual relationship. Some studies have linked watching porn to violence and sexual problems.

Desperate to not break up
If you tell him you're thinking of leaving, the loser will freak out and act desperate; he will tell you how much he loves you, how he will change to keep you. He will promise that he'll be a completely different person.
The loser is terrified of getting dumped, but often won't mind dumping you.

Isn't Affectionate
Of course, once the "honeymoon stage" is over, you probably won't be making out as much; but you should still have affection and intimacy in your relationship. If he shows a complete lack of affection and intimacy toward you, it will only get worse as your relationship gets older.

Acts like a mooch
In a relationship both members should be showing that they are independently able to support themselves. Beware if he seems to be expecting you to pick up the slack and do things for him. If you're always driving him, handling things for him, and paying for things for him it's only going to get worse.
If he's on welfare on unemployment instead of working, it's a sign he'd rather mooch than actually have to work for the things he wants.
Blames Everyone Else for his Problems
A loser doesn't take responsibility. It isn't his fault he got fired; the boss was a jerk. It isn't his fault he's in debt; It's society's. It's always someone else's fault with a loser boyfriend-- anything bad that happens with, he'll blame his family, you, society, or other people for. It's a great way to get by on life sucking, but blaming other people for why you suck.

Doesn't listen
If someone loves you, they want to listen to your needs and want to know how you're feeling. It's not normal for a guy to not listen to you, if he cares about you.
If they don't seem interested in your thoughts, worries, dreams, goals, then they aren't someone you can make a life with.

its such a beautiful day

2011-10-08T21:30:00.001+08:00

8 oct 2011 at Dewan Tunku Chansellor.

Started with such a rushing day ..late comers.hell!! let it be, still can get into the hall, then the nervousnous and finally the walking up the stage for the convocation ceremony.receiving my long anticipated scroll...it was my happy day...and ann farhanah baharuddin u are right, its my big day..:)..

thank you to mum and dad for putting up with me this 4 years..

and thank you all,for the flowers the teddy bear and the chocolates..

mum cried i can see, her eyes were red when i saw her outside the hall, huhuhu..

the thing that overwhelmed me after that, was to realised the frens that i have.i am a lucky girl..sayangs..u rock my world, nor fatihah..i cant believe u came sis...afi u are a sweetheart and anis, u make me lost for words..:)..i <3 u, sayangs too...arda juga bagi tumpang rumah, suha and nisa tolong jaga beg..hihihhi

s.i for coming all the way from seremban, ann from serdang, ikin from shah alam, afi for accompaying s.i, fyrot for coming to see me and that smiley chocolate..thank you all for sushi king, for being with me on my special day, and the best of all, for letting me knowing u guys..u guys rock my socks off!!!..yeahhh!!!

i actually want that patung domo, macd la cakap nama dia domo, tak tau pon...kaler coklat petak2 tue..wuuwuw..comeyl gile, but besok ade org nak gi konvo UIA nak gi cari...yeah yeah yeah..:)..best la kawan2 saya nie..

to all my frens who graduating tadi, CONGRATULATION!!!!...a lot of people i dun see today, ain, zatie, aiza, azie, kak cha..but all and all..hepii days..hepi daysss...:)

graduation pigs

2011-10-08T20:54:00.004+08:00

no matter wether u graduate or not..if u are a pig or babi tonyok..u stay as babi tonyok and pigs..yes, reality check..u are still a PIG..now go to hell

p/s-dah elok2 ngan meeze,bengong.. tah hape tah yg ko pikir....maybe ur right!! ak memang tak mmpu kot nak ade dalam hidup ko..tunggu mase je nih, ak dah tak leh nak wat tak tau sgt, maybe much annoyance can turns to hate..then all hell will break loose..humm

saturday..this is what happen when u are woken up with a bad note..the irritation stays till night time..

2011-10-06T23:30:00.002+08:00

cant wait for saturday..but also i have to meet one of the babi's i have met in my entire life, stupid!!!..makes me want to bring a gun and shoot him dead at the scene..

the craziest thing is that all the person i hate, the name start with "A"..fit with asshole..haha..or let just called them babi just for the insult.or the latest addition of what i like to call "babi tonyok"..the epitomy of everything loser..oh my god..i hate u fucking worthless, loser shit..i hope u die and drown and that ur family disowned u..oh my god..is there is a person u hate in ur life?? now triple it by 1000..thats how i feel..the sight of ur face makes me want to vomit, the hearing of ur name is enough to make me sick!..iyyeeekkk..

I JUST HOPE AND PRAY TO GOD THAT ONE DAY THEY WILL PAY..IN A BAD AND SHAMEFUL WAY THEY WILL PAY..AND LET KARMA BE THEIR TEACHER..

all thing's good is for good people and all thing's bad are for bad people..i am not saying that im a good person but i know what u did and who u are as a person is such a shame...

:)

makin tua

2011-10-06T14:38:00.003+08:00

harini 6hb 10..dah 23 tahun 4 hari dah umor ak...ape yang ak rase?? same je..tak de rase nak jadi besar..still rase macam kanak2..

tapi ak tau ak ade banyak benda tuk ak bersyukur..sejahat jahat ak..tuhan masih jaga ak.masih islam..sejahat jahat ak..masih ade rase berdosa masih ade rase nak berubah....spend satu hari semalam bace buku syaitan mengadap nabi muhammad a.s...rupenye syaitan dah bagitau semua dah cara2 dia goda kita manusia.kriteria2 perempuan jahat, lelaki jahat ..tapi selama nie tak penah nak amik tau ek..huuhu..jahil bebenor..

ak juga bersyukur ya tuhan kerana lahirkan ak dalam keluarga ini, mereka menjaga ak dari kecik..ye lah bak kata org, anak perempuan nak jaga, baiklah beli lembu sekandang..dan ak pon dah makin besar..masih sihat, dan semoga dengan kurniaan tuhan ak nak membantu dan bals kembali jasa ibu dan ayah, sabtu nih ak nak konvo, ni je lah satu2 cara ak nak balas budi diorang dgn belajar, dari UPSR, ke PMR ke MRSM ke SPM ke UM now dah ade degree...mungkin kalau ade rezeki tahun depan master pulak..amin..

ak bersyukur juga punye kawan2 yang best dan memahami..anda tahu siapa diri anda, tak perlu saya sebut.., tanpa korang ak dah sesat dah, tanpa korang ak dah keseorangan, tanpa korang tak ceria hidup ak, tanpa korang ak dah susah, korang bantu ak disaat susah senang, tension, assignment banyak..korang la yang bantu ak..ak sayangkan korang semua..dan besyukur tuhan temukan ak ngan korang..ak janji kita adalah soulmates sampai bile2..takkan terputus takkan berpisah..ya tuhan kau lindungi lah sahabat2 ak nih, ampunkan dosa mereka, murahkan rezeki, kau jaga lah kemaluan mereka..amiinnn...

aku juga bersyukur kepada tuhan kerana diberikan akal untuk berfikkir, tangan untuk memegang dan mengusap dahi dan dada org yang saya sayang agar mereka tenang, kau kurniakan ak mulut untuk mrnikmati makanan, untuk bercakap perkara baik2 walaupun kadang2 ak salah gunakan, kau bagi ak mulut untuk mengucup dahi dan pipi org yang ak sayang, ya tuhan kau kurniakan ak hati dan perasaan untuk ak rasa cinta pada kau, untuk ak rasa perasaan menyayang dan disayangi, ya tuhan kau beri ak jantung untuk ak hidup dan menikmati alam nie, ak besyukur kau berikan ak kesihatan yang baik untuk ak sama2 menjalani hidup selama ini.

Ya allah, ak bersyukur atas apa yang telah ko berikan, ampunkan dosa hambamu ini, ampunkan lah dosa kedua ibu bapa ku, murahkan rezeki aku untuk ku bals jasa mereka dan ya allah, kau jagalah kemaluan ku..amiinn..

saya nak promote buku abah kawan saya

2011-09-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

nama dia madeehah rasid..abah dia ustaz rasid baru publish 3 buku...jadi saya nak promote kat sini..madeehah nie hantu tgk wyg kalau rase hantu jugak bole la ajak dia, kalau bosan takde benda nak buat, ajak la dia keluar..die on je..tapi sebab dia selalu tak kesah..saya kalau keluar ngan dia, nak cari tempat makan pon sengah jam..sebab dua2 tak kesah..so susah nak wat keputusan..salu kalau leceh sgt..kitorang keluar berdua je..senang..

madeehah juga lebih dikenali dengan panggilan mac d atas dasar sebaran sesat hana, kalau tidak nama dia madee..tapi mac d tak kesah..dia relek je..hana pula sorang lagi sahabat baek saya.suke menyakat org ramai dan juga gengster kaki pukul, kalau dia bergaduh ngan rumate dia..locker tue konfem kemek...jadi rumate dia akan terdiam dan terus senyap..hehe..tapi hana skang nie dah banyak berubah..die lebih penyabar.saya pon terkejut tgk dia bila jumpe...eh ini dah lari topik....sebenarnye patot cter pasal abah madeehah yang wat buku tue..tapi sebab saya tak kenal sgt ustaz rasid, saya cerita la pasal anak ustaz rasid je..sape2 nak wat calon..bagus sgtla tue, dia pon memang baik.elok budi pekerti..chewah..beratur mintak borang kat ustaz rasid ye..

ok balik pade topik..korang salu beli buku novel2 cinta kan?? so ape kata kali ni tukar selera..sekali sekala belila buku agama ilmiah sikit kan..support la abah kawan saya nie..penulisan dan karya dia sgt best..malaysia boleh!! *tetibe*

p/s- mac d besday ak nanti ak nak hadiah yang soklan bocor dari kubur tue ek..hehehe

today..informative day (sabtue berilmu)

2011-09-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

best quote today...

"im not just saying it, u just heard it..there is a diff between what u heard and what i say"

what is the best on saturday night?? as much as i wud hate to admit yes its astro...weekends usually is the best time to be on the TV 24 hours..haha.lets see what i watch today..oh weekend also best sebab mak akan masak yang special sikit..today makan mee hailam, tauhu sumbat, popiah goreng and nasi goreng as supper..nyummy..enuff said..da kuar topik..

today i watch:

nigella lawson in nigella express--she can just make u hungry by the way she's eating food..and plus she is a hot mama..

masterchef US-chef ramsay is so cruel..

house season 7..he is still an asshole, he lied to cuddy and he so disrespectful to everyone..yeah he is still a good doctor unfortunately..

alaska gold rush on discovery..amazing life on the miners..seriously cool..

miracle detective on nat geo

king of restoration is history channel..

back up plan in HBO

the sleepers in HBO

the gates..in star world

off the map in starworld..

what did i get from this?? a whole lot of information and fun....and since i am sick of measles..so food always comes to me..that is a plus....dun have to cook..havent been cooking in almost a week..still have that annoying achik running around..all and all a good day..:)

sumpah membencikan

2011-09-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

achik achik..gedik sungguh..

sape nak tgk kucing paling annoying dalam dunia..sila datang ke rumah saya..enuf said...:)

p/s- tak sbaar nak jumpe ikin besok..mac d, aiza and azie..huhuhu..:)..new fb sucks..im turning to ym and twitter..:)

ujian hidup

2011-09-24T19:17:00.010+08:00

Kematian itu pasti. Semua makhluk, atau organism dalam dunia ni akan mati. Takde yang hidup selama-lamanya. Itu hakikat kehidupan. Bahkan, gunung-ganang yang nampak tinggi dan kuat itu pun akan mati. (in the sense that they will be eroded in time). Memang la gunung tak "mati" dalam masa setahun dua, tapi beratus-ratus tahun.

Semua makhluk dalam dunia ni, akan mati. Tapi, manusia ni special dari makhluk-makhluk yang lain. Manusia, lepas mati, akan melalui alam barzakh pulak. Ko tak mati gitu je. Semua yang dibuat semasa hidup,akan disoal siasat pulak kat dalam kubur. Semua amalan, sama ada baik dan buruk, akan dikira. Sebab tu la Nabi Muhammad SAW suruh kita jauhi perkara yang buruk. Jangan buat dosa. Semasa hidup, buat banyak amalan supaya dapat banyak pahala. Supaya dapat masuk syurga.

Pernah dengar tak, amalan kita kat dunia ni umpama bekal yang akan kita bawak ke alam selepas mati. Macam dulu-dulu, masa kita kecik-kecik, bawak bekal pegi sekolah. Macam tu la.

Pernah dengar tak lagi, semasa kita hidup ni, diibaratkan kita ni sedang diuji. Kira macam kita tengah ambik exam la. Macam-macam onak dan ranjau yang Allah bagi kat kita untuk tengok sama ada kita boleh lalui atau tak. Kalau kita berjaya, masuklah kita ke dalam syurga. Kalau gagal, masuk neraka.

Macam sekarang, kalau kita nak exam, mesti kita stadi gila-gila untuk skor. Untuk masuk sekolah bagus-bagus, masuk universiti bagus-bagus, supaya dapat kerja bagus-bagus dan dapat gaji bagus-bagus juga.

Tapi, bukan senang nak skor. Kena buat kerja sekolah, rajin tanya cikgu, stay up sampai tengah malam, korbankan masa lepak, korban masa meronggeng, macam-macam lagi. Tapi kalau kita bersenang-lenang, enjoy, tak buat kerja sekolah, main-main, tido dalam kelas, ponteng sekolah, boleh ke kita skor? Secara logik, memang tak boleh. Bila tak skor, korang rasa boleh ke dapat masuk sekolah bagus-bagus, masuk universiti bagus-bagus, dapat kerja bagus-bagus dan dapat gaji bagus-bagus? Melainkan kalau bapak kau kaya, boleh la tapi takkan kekal lama. Kalau bapak kau kaya sekalipun tapi kau bengong, lama-lama lingkup juga.

Sama la konsepnya dengan ujian Allah. Sebagai contoh, kat dunia kita tak boleh minum arak tapi kalau kita masuk syurga, kalau kita nak minum arak 24 jam sehari pun takpe. Kat dunia, kita tak boleh buat maksiat tapi kat syurga, kalau kita nak bersetubuh sepanjang masa pun xde hal. Suka hati kau nak buat apa kat syurga. Tapi jalan ke syurga tu bukannya mudah. Macam-macam kena korban. Kena solat, tak boleh pakai seksi, tak boleh bersetubuh dengan bukan suami, tak boleh minum arak, tak boleh tipu mak bapak, tak boleh tabaruj, macam-macam lagi.

Sungguh pun macam tu, cuba tanya diri kita sendiri, agak-agak cukup tak pengorbanan kita untuk dapat masuk syurga? Kalau tanya semua orang, ada ke orang yang volunteer nak masuk neraka? Ada ke orang yang rela kena seksa? Hari-hari kena bakar, kena hentak, kena minum nanah, kena minum air panas, duduk dalam tempat yang panas sampai otak pun menggelegak? Bayangkan, otak menggelegak weh. Sekarang duduk tengah panas terik sikit pun dah merungut itu ini, inikan pulak kalau matahari sejengkal dari kepala.

Aku tahu, aku bukan seorang yang perfect. Banyak gila benda yang Allah dah warning dalam Quran supaya jangan buat, tapi aku buat juga. Tapi kita sebagai manusia kenalah selalu bagi peringatan sesama kita. Mungkin dengan tulisan aku ni, ada orang yang akan insaf, akhirnya dia masuk syurga. Insya Allah.

Kalau salah, tolonglah betulkan. Aku pun bukanlah dari kalangan orang yang tinggi ilmu. Wallahualam.

actually this is taken from a fren blog post.aizatie ramli namanya..hehhe...sama2 la kita bce ingat kan diri..dia ni selalu banyak bagi nasihat kat ak, ak kalau wat benda jahat salu gi konfes kat dia,dia tak penah pon judge ak..marah memang la marah,kene perli segala..*ni paling tak tahan* tapi nanti dia kasi nasihat..ak dengar jugakla..walaupun kadang2 sekejap je pastuh wat balik..tapi at least ak tau ape yang aku buat tue salah.itulah guna kawan sebenarnye..at least ak tak twisted macam orang yang tak tau betul dan salah..i also used to have a fren who wud call me and asked wether im ok everytime i went out at night.*ana and zac sometimes*..we remain as close fren but the relationship had been altered..time change everything.ape2 pon...hope we all gain something from this..

feelings

2011-09-24T17:21:00.002+08:00

everybody who knows me know that i am a sensitive person.I weep and cry over beautiful songs, beautiful poems, a great movie will surely makes me cry..so does this....this is a lyric..and it makes me feel so sad but happy at the same time..weird right?? ..but any way..here it is..somehow this lyrics really understands..

It was helpless anyway

There's nothing much we could do or say

Darling don't you think it's a shame?

that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,

our love is lost,

and we cant figure why

maybe it really is about time

that we finally made up our minds

t's not an easy thing

to shake off our history

i know that's what you want from me

but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes

but darling with you it's just the same

if we stay there will be more to make

i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair

to stay with something no longer there

its not that i no longer care

i'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

So Darling, here's to you

i hope that when you find someone new

that would always be true to you

to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories

then slowly you'd forget about me

then i would slowly be

a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be

that someone you used to know

But darling you will thank me

for letting you go

time is not for wasting

i hope you'll find your intended

But i'm sorry

that your intended

isn't me

mo chuishle

2011-09-23T23:40:00.005+08:00

Is this the end?
Then why does it feel
We'd only just begun
I thought we were done

And if you NEED me
Close your eyes and dream
I'll give you back your key
But will you be happy?
Will you be happy?

Said we'll leave it alone
But I wont be here long
And when I'm GONE
I guess then we'll know

I think I'll hang on
If you still want me
But if you don't
I guess I'll move on

I guess I'll move on

I guess I'll move on..

p/s-i need a place to run..far away from all the lies and pain..why god is not on my side?? sometimes i wonder..what sin had i done to deserve all this?? ..if i believe in reincarnation..i wud die and kill my self..with this amount of pain i cud at least be someone in the next life..i just want to sleep without going back to all those places..i sumtimes wud have nightmares, even in dreams u wud hurt me.. i am weary...i just want to be me once more...dat is all i ask

u are turning into along

2011-09-23T04:26:00.002+08:00

lets talk cat today.ok..if u guys dun know i had two cats..achik and along..along died quite recently..so we are left with achik.

.b4 this he was quite a stray in this house..kurang kasih sayang..everybody just ignore him just because along is so much cuter, so much fatter, so much mengada..he wud just mind his own bussiness in a corner and thats it..he'd do his own stuff and gets out of everybody's way because seriously nobody wud play or cuddle him...along was the star of the house..

now he is turning into this mengada2, and baring dengan aksi comel kat tgh2 umah and sitting in along's old place...he always eat..now he is getting fatter and always acts cute..i feel like i want to slap him..now he is everybody's attention and he quite likes it..im just so annoyed sometimes but i guess it is so funny and cute seeing him running all around the house..attention seeker!!!..u are turning into along..ish ish ish...

p/s-see the part why he annoys me so much is the fact he poop on my bed when he was still a cute kitten once..i still remember it till now..feel like i want to ketuk his head

so much plans

2011-09-22T04:36:00.001+08:00

oh seriously have alot of things going on in my head...so many plans..fingers cross i can do all of it..oh my god..having fun with all my girlfrens and mirul..i cant wait..:)..

New zealand..here i come...oh please air asia..stop putting me in the waiting room..give me the tickets..:(...oh god..please let there be promotion..: /

annoying??? annoying..ok..

2011-09-20T17:27:00.005+08:00

u have never listen to anything i say..at least u wud have care enough in knowing what i feel and think through my text in the midst u dun want to answer my phone call..

ak patot bace post tue awal sket..alright then..ok...i understand now..i see to it that ur wish is my command...no more text or phone call ever!! plss god help me..

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uhm lets talk more about food..i only had two bread and a piece of chicken in a lenght of one week..now my stomach cant tolerate any food..its eithr i wud vomit or it goes out as liquid poo...:( so sad

got few sms asking me to go out..hello wei?? nak kuar ngan muke cmni?? no way...uhuhu..Iqin i miss u too, diba nanti kim salam kat yong..ana botak..postponed k darlink?? mirul...yolah, ak dengar ape ko cakap.. cepat balik..banyak benda nak story..and zac!! i hate uuuu!!!!...jalan2..i hate u, i hate ur job..huh!! takmo kawan..

spenr the whole day vomiting and some severe headache..i hate being sick..im going back to the hospital tomorrow for anotther..check..mlsnye..

dah dekat pukul 4

2011-09-20T04:19:00.001+08:00

nape tak leh tdo?? da 4 pagi..hish..hati tak sedap..rase mcam ade benda buruk je..ya allah..bagila ak ketenteraman jiwa...nikmat tdo...dan semuanya...

ya allah ya tuhan ku,, kau ampunkan lah dosaku,dosa ibu bapa ku kau jagala kemaluan ku..amin ya allah..

doa ni belajar dari kawan ak..lama dah tak jumpe ko..

p/s-ape ke tebiat aku nih pagi2 bute?? aisshhh

is this the end

2011-09-19T02:50:00.003+08:00

oh god..so sad..i cry so much but its ok...sometimes u need to know when to give up...especially when u are not welcome anymore..:)..dun worry..i'll be ok.. i will.. i am strong..sometimes when i remember u, i will cry and i will be ok again...cos i am strong..i look at the moon and sing this song and i will be strong again..

Is this the end?
Then why does it feel
We'd only just begun
I thought we were done

I think I'll hang on
If you still want me
But if you don't
I guess I'll move on

And if you need me
Close your eyes and dream
I'll give you back your key
But will you be happy?
Will you be happy?

Said we'll leave it alone
But I wont be here long
And when I'm gone
I guess then we'll know

I think I'll hang on
If you still want me
But if you don't
I guess I'll move on

I guess I'll move on

I guess I'll move on..

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bodoh betul

2011-09-19T02:27:00.002+08:00

nape susah sgt nak cari lagu just give up?? semua pon dun give up, i will not give up, i am not giving up...aisshhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway this is an extraction of bohemian rhapsody with a tweak....

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide,
No escape from reality
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see,

I'm just a poor girl, I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go, Little high, little
low,
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to
me, to me

MAMA i just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead
MAMA, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh ooh oooh ohh.., Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth

Mama, ooh, I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all
I'm just a poor girl nobody loves me
She's just a poor girl from a poor family,
Spare her life from this monstrosity

Easy come, easy go, will you let me go
has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me

So you think you can stop me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby,u can't do this to me, baby,
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here

Nothing really matters, Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters,
Nothing really matters to me
Any way the wind blows

i have no idea

2011-09-19T02:18:00.001+08:00

im done?? i dun know..but i am tired..i am hurt and i think i have lost all the strenght to go on..i am so out of energy...

i am wrong this few days..maybe its just an act..maybe u just dun care..i dun know..i dun know what to think..

all i know is i am tired..and i want to sleep..so gud night...

best ke??

2011-09-18T13:16:00.002+08:00

sayangs ade orang kata korang best giler..and nak ajak lepak bbq lagi..korang ingat tak member ak ana ngan nobie dulu?? datang halfway mase kita punye BBQ event?? hahhaa..sebuk ajak lepak lagi..nak ajak korang lagi.

hahahha...nanti kita wat lagi yer aktiviti itu..menark betul..tgk bayan masak ..next time bayan..ko kene mandi jugak okeyh..hahahahahahahhahaha...

tell me the wrong..

2011-09-17T18:36:00.000+08:00

tell me the wrong in asking where ur fren is going in the middle of the night??

tell me the wrong of worrying sick of who the hell are the people she out with??

tell me the wrong in it??

now tell me the wrong of making those two such a big thing..

now tell me the wrong in dun want to tell the answer by giving hurtful remarks..

now tell me??..

the hangover

2011-09-17T15:41:00.000+08:00

what happen when 4 bestfrens when to vegas waking up when one is missing and cant remember the night before??

so begin the quest to find their missing fren...

hahahahahhaa........it is so funny..everyone shud watch this..

home alone

2011-09-17T14:39:00.000+08:00

everyone is out to kajang for raya and im left alone..so wat shud i do??

this ubat is so mengantuk, mak dah masakkan bubur..so eat..watch tv makan ubat and sleep...

oh..im also planning to get into someone skin today..hehhe....oh oh oh...

stupid achik one more time u make a mess in this room..i kick u out..

no 4

2011-09-17T09:36:00.003+08:00

morning after silence is number 4

call me weak..but im done at 4...im done...now every single thing comes flashing back in my mind..

..stalking and i found a more disturbing thoughts..

roger and out...im out

so many plan

2011-09-17T02:49:00.001+08:00

so much joy..

so many people..

so many frens..

oh god...i need 3 weeks wei..b4 all this dissappear from my fucking face...dun be shock if u guys see some holes on my nose...:(

but anyway...oh god...cepat la sihat..too many plans to execute..

p/s- new quote.

".if advise do not work..maybe insult will "

f.u.c.k

2011-09-17T02:22:00.001+08:00

this is three..

strike!!!...babi..

i have no idea how u can annoy and menyakitkan ati ak even when we are miles apart..i am so sick of this..i am tired..i cant sleep.its itchy..

im going to off my phone and sleep..lets the annoyance pass me when i wake up tomorrow morning..

u suck u suck u suck

2011-09-16T21:44:00.008+08:00

that is..two..

let see to how much more i can take..
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my measles is not getting better..the itchiness..oh demm it..dah la tak dapat pegi melaka harini.sayangs..sori..next event ak ikot k... azie and aiza kol semalam..thanks guys.nanti ak ikot petua2 tue sume.. aten kol, fiza nak datang raya umah..raya ape wei...kang tak pasal2 berjangkit...hak hak..kak azue ajak datang penang...wuuuu..:(...camane??..thanks aten.being there..chatting kat fb..hehehe..lawak betolla..

p/s-quote of the day.

"the only thing bigger than ur ego is the lies that u tell..i cant have that in my kitchen..well said well said.."..chef ramsay from hell kitchen

life sucks

2011-09-15T20:06:00.001+08:00

im tired..its painfull..i look like ive been bitten by million of bees and its just so tiring..i cant sleep, i cant walk..demm..:(

:(

:(

lesson learn

2011-09-12T23:27:00.002+08:00

"Let us forget with generosity those who cannot love us"
— Pablo Neruda..

lets travel

2011-09-12T16:01:00.000+08:00

girlfrens..lets travel..:(

cool

2011-09-11T01:06:00.001+08:00

baru balik dari rumah ikin..:)

sehari suntuk..tapi menarik gila..dah beli sate, dah melepak, baring2 bace blog...lapan kali round macam tue..baru balik..tapau banyak gile..

thank iqin..sgt best..dapat jump korang semua gak..:)

i am me once more

2011-09-07T18:21:00.002+08:00

will there come a day that i can really sing this song..and mean every word of it??.. i dun think i ever can..the worse part..i dun think i want to..*sigh*sometimes, i just wish that u cud said that u cant too..why do i always have to be the chaser's in this chasing game??..omg, im such a mess.i'm running around like a crazy person..

tomorrow

2011-09-06T21:55:00.003+08:00

going to go out and meet shiqin ghazali for FD 5..haraplah best..:)

lets go out and have fun...ahad nie makan free an ikin?? yeayyyyy

siuation

2011-09-06T05:42:00.000+08:00

aaahh..certain things are better left unsaid.. i am annoyed, sick and tired..wat a douchebag!!.but watever..just save as draft..there is no need to be publish..just pray to god that some sweet revenge can come into play next time..karma will pay..and may god be on the way of their help..i feel so kesian actually..when i think about it..how angry, dissapointed or annoyed or even sad actually ak lebih kesian sebenarnye...dats what happen when u have such a twisted mindsets..

well, lets talk about something else..along my cat is getting worse..i dun know how it works..but please all pray for him..:(.get well and better and better..let him run and play again..

and i think i am doing the same mistakes again..no!! oh god.. i need to stop b4 its getting worse and everything will be deja-vu ..the same thing over and over again..lets try harder!!..god help me and give me srength...

p/s- i know nobody understands what am i writing but hey..its my space and its my blog with my name on it..so back off!!!..but please do and pray for my cat..:(

thank you allah

2011-09-04T02:50:00.002+08:00

harini dalam kenangan..3 sept 2011...terbaiklah..sgt hepiiii..walaupun terpaksa menolak beraya dengan pelajar seri ampangan serta tak dapat menghadirkan diri ke kenduri efa..harap korang paham la ye..ak tak leh badan nak pecah sampai 3...kalau bole nak berada kat semua tempat satu masa..

nak cerita semua tak tercerita..nak ingat memang sentiasa dalam otak dan kepala..nak ucap terima kasih dah tak terterima kasih lagi dah..gembira dah terlebih gembira..makan dah terlebih makan..penat pon dah terlebih penat..banyak betul yang jadi harini..yang seronok, yang kelakar..yang pahit yang manis..semua ade..

dah tak tergambar lagi dah..yang penting semua nih adalah memori yang ak takkan lupe..lebih penting lagi ak sangat bersyukur..ak dapat peluang mengenali mereka..ak dah cukup selesa ngan sekarang nie..group ak yang ni..:)..ak sayang korang..dan korang lah yang terbaik tuk ak..

stakat emo2, taching2 tue da biasela kan..hahha..t ak dah keje..presure2 ke ape..kalau ak marah2 tetibe sensitip..teibe perlukan perhatian..korang paham2 je la yer.makes sure korang still ade ngan ak..ak dah bagitahu awal2...hehehhe..

sumpah ak dah tak cari lain dah..:)..perjalanan raya kali ni..ak rase sgt bermakna..sempat kene ceramah ngan bayan lam kereta..semua harta benda kita ni pinjaman je allah bagi, never take things for granted..always reflects on things..and bersyukurla..dengan setiap memori yang kita ade...sebak rase nak nangis dowh lam kete..bila kau cakap camtue tadi......btul bayan cakap, bersyukur gak ak kenal ngan org macam kau nie..low profile..

tarikh : 3 sept 2011
aktiviti: konvoi raya di melaka.

sayangs and ex-terendakian..:)

p/s- nur..kau puye peramah, punye lakonan kalau berjumpe org tua..sumpah terbaik..kalau batu bole becakap, batu pon kau tegur ajak borak...yang paling best tuk S.I adalah dapat jumpe syed..yang best tuk ak..dapat jumpe diea..dah 6 tahun tak jumpe..sgt suke dapat jumpe ko dan kembar kau..semayang maghrib kat umah kau..sampai ngan aku2 da terlentang baring atas katil tak larat..hahaha

tadi mase na balik..mak diea berdiri depan kereta..tadah tangan berdoa tuk kitorang..ya allah sebak, rase cam nak nangis..baik sungguh..ak doakan kebahagian keluarga kau diea.melimpah ruah...dan kwan2 lain juga..sudi kami datang ke rumah dan melayan kitorang..terutama S.I..berbrak ngan mak kau sampai kul 12 sengah malam..dah macam org mude bak kata mak ko..ahahha..:)

bile lepak lama2 ngan korang ne sume..ak percaya..dat good people still exist in this world..

update harini..

2011-09-02T22:54:00.004+08:00

bangun pagi2..terus hanta along ke hospital..mula2 pegi kerajaan..pastu tutup..last2 pegi hanta swasta..along kene tahan wad..besok baru bole ambil..

balik umah..mak dah bising2 suh hanta baby pergi keje..yer baby pegi kerja kat umah pengasuh ..so keluar pegi baju baby and napkin and botol susu untuk bawak pergi uma pengasuh..

pastuh da kul 3 sengah..mirul da kol and sms..si zati ghafur..dah kol 2 kali tanye nak sampai umah efa kul bape..so..konfem nek kete tak leh parking..so nek moto je gi umah efa..masuk dalam amek gamba ngan efa and ucap tahniah and keluar cpt2 sebelum anip sampai and stuck kat dalam bilik..lepak2 kat luar ngan mirul, wakeel ngan safwan..and anip pon sampai.lepas ucap tahniah lepak la ngan anip, adik laki dia ngan sepupu2 dia..so duduk satu meja..borak2....muke cuak je..pakai baju tak sedondon sebab takot nanti org cakap over plak..pastuh malu2..nak suh masuk amek gamba ngan efa pon malu2..sengal betol..kene paksa baru pegi..

tgh borak2..sambil layan si nina asyik kol 2-3 kali, tanye jalan umah..ikin pon kol tanye pasal plan esok pagi..so ak terpaksa la lari2..tak lepak sgt ngan diorang..tapi sempat ungggu sampai abis..da doa semua..masuk dalam cpt2..pegi salam efa..and balik umah..nina pon dah ade kat umah..kene paksa makan rendang ngan lontong ngan mak ak hahha..feyo kol nak datang semban..tapi ak cakap tak bole..tak sempat nak jumpe cos ak nak kene pegi melaka..:(

siap2..terus gerak ke melaka..then singgah di bachang pastuh straight ke mitc..sebab da kalut sngt..si nina tukar dress ngan heel dalam kete..ak pon sarung kemeja ngan kasut lam kete..tapi yang menarik trip ke mlaka adalah sesi karoke lam kete..demm..ak dah sakit tekak dah nie...sengal punye nina...sumpah best!! kalau ngan ko..drive jauh2 pon ak tak kesah..takkan boring punyala..dari lenka ke lady gaga, britney spears and bruno mars, cee-lo green ke greyson chance ke katy perry..semua habis nynyi lam kete..fuh..skit tekak ak!!..

p/s-hari yang seronok..congrats efa..im so happy for u darling.anip u one lucky guy..she really is a beautiful person inside and out..innocent...u r my bff for 10 years now..tadi nak cium tak leh plak..sebab me-kup tebal sgt...habis mulut ak nanti..hahahhaa...and papepo trip to melaka with nina..sgt best!! i lap u darling..)

macam2 jadi..aish

2011-09-02T01:22:00.003+08:00

umm...tadi keluar ngan mirul..melepak kat AnW sampai kul 10.then dapat kol..along kene langgar kereta..balik umah..macam org gile..bawak kete..then bawak pegi klinik..macam org gile..klinik tutup..siannye along..bunyi mengiau macam sakit sgt..ak takot ade internal bleeding je..sebab luke kat luar tak nampak pon..uhmmm..

then jumpe efa.sorila terlepas cakap kat **** lak..manelah ak tau, dia tak tau..manelah ak tau ko ajak 4 org je..hahahha..actually.lepak kat umah dia..konon nak tolong kenduri..tapi sedara mara dia dah ramai..so lepak2 aje la..sempatla jumpe mak ngan bapak dia salam2...sbb dah tak keje skang nih..so belikan efa kek je la,secret recipe...blueberry walnut ke ape tah..tak ingat dah..kalau ade rezeki taun depan ko kawen..ak sponsor satu dulang..tapi satu je la..ko mintak je ape ko nak..kitorang pergi cari..muahahaha..mirul cpt! kuar share ngan ak gak..mampos zati ghafur kecik ati..takpe2..ko mintak kitorang tak mampu..lagi pon time ko kahwin ak tak keje lagi..hahahhaa...

tomorrow is going to be a long and hectic day..already bayan dah kol and sikin da mesej..tanye plan besok..sori wei..pagi sok ak nak anta kucing ak pegi klinik dulu..then baru boleh jalan2..tgh hari lepas zuhur..ak nak kene pegi kenduri efa dulu..pastuh petang sambung ngan korang..then kene pegi jumpe nina....waaaaaaaa nina..ak rindu kat kau!..changkat jom!! muahahahhaha...ak nak kene beraya ngan nina and ikot dia pegi melaka...

kalau bole bagi 5 badan ak pon bagus gak..supaya bole berada 5 tempat satu mase..then sabtue..konvoi trendak and konvoi ampangan..T.T...ak tak tau nak pegi mane satu..tapi mungkin ak pegi konvoi terendak..sebab ak da janji dulu ngan mereka..Oh my God..hecticnya hidup ak...uhm..along da stat menangis..siannye..sakit sgt.ak rase patah la tulang dia..

i ask god and promise myself a few weeks ago to never let my self love and care about anyone anymore..to never get close with anyone ever again and to let go...today i promise myself after this..i wont get myself a cat anymore!!!..this is so sad..alongg..tahan sakit sikit yer..esok kita pegi klinik..:(

list to buy tomorrow:

syringe and cat milk

nak bancuh susu ngan frieskies dia and sedut masuk dalam syringe untuk paksa along makan..kucing sakit sama macam org jugak..tak lalu nak makan..tapi kene paksa jugak..kalau tak makan nanti takde tenaga and lagi lambat sihat..so jadi doktor kucingla 2-3 minggu nie..takpe..demi along..sanggup je tak payah keluar umah...

cpt sihat yer along....
update!! along kene tahan wad...:(

let me in

2011-09-01T18:53:00.001+08:00

Bring me a lily and one loaf of bread

take me home now

I can't forget any words

that you've said

but they're gone now

Trying my best to keep up with your pace but you're too fast

Trying my best to get off of this fence

for I won't last

Maybe we can try to be better this time

I'm just a speckle of dust in this gigantic world now

And I'm going only where the wind will take me bring me down now

And my smiles turn to tears

and I'm facing my fears

can't you see me trying my best to reach out for your hand

you won't let me in

and I've done what I can you keep changing your plans

do you need me

Maybe we can try to be better this time

so let me in

let me in let me in

let me in

let me….

i have nothing to write.let the song speak for it self..

layan blues..suddenly i feel so sad..T.T

2011-09-01T02:35:00.001+08:00

headache like hell..tak bole tdo..makan panadol pon xde gune..so online..chatting with one of my fb fren..um..sometime ppl yang tak kenal lagi best bercerita..understad better...after that..since dat guy tdo awal..so online..bukak playlist lama..then terdengar semula lagu nih....oh my god..It really brings me back to that place..

zee avi..u understand me more than any1 can..(perasan je cam lagu ni wat khas tuk ak)..hahahaha..

anyway, here is a song for whoever feels the same way...its so sad..but happy at the same time....uhmm..oh my god..zee avi..u are my personal heroin..

It was helpless anyway

There's nothing much we could do or say

Darling don't you think it's a shame?

that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,

our love is lost,

and we cant figure why

maybe it really is about time

that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you

i hope that when you find someone new

that she would always be true to you

to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories

then slowly you'd forget about me

then i would slowly be

a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be

that someone you used to know

But darling you will thank me

for letting you go

time is not for wasting

i hope you'll find your intended

But i'm sorry

that your intended

isn't me

it's not an easy thing

to shake off our history

i know that's what you want from me

but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes

but darling with you it's just the same

if we stay there will be more to make

i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair

to stay with something no longer there

its not that i no longer care

i'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

*Soon i'll just be

that someone you used to know

But darling you will thank me

for letting you go

time is not for wasting

i hope you'll find your intended

But i'm sorry

that your intended

isn't me

balik kampung..hohohoho

2011-08-31T21:28:00.002+08:00

B4 start..i just got a mesej rindu rinduan dari diba..and her fb tag saying that she is addicted with the book of morris johnsson by zee avi song that i gave her..i am so glad fren...thanks for the feed back.:).i really appreciate it..T.T..its a great song kan?? make u feel happy......at least i know now u like good music..thanks to zee avi!! yea!!

balik kampung...lame dah tak jumpe mak cik pak cik..yang tak bestnye bile soklan.."kau dah keje belom??" addoiiill..tak best nak jawab..tapi bila jawab tak..so dapat dwet raya lagi..mungkin tahun terakhir kalini..

lupe nak mek gamba..kalau tak mesti best..makanan nye termasuklah lontong yang sgt pedas woh..lontong versi negeri sembilan..hahha..then ade kuih muih..pastuh..tertinggal..batang burok satu bungkus..:( ..waaaaaaaa dah letak atas meja..lupe nak bawak balik..demmit..

semalam makan nasi dagang, laksa semua..tadi rendang ketupat, kuih muih...maggie..yer jangan terkejut meggie kari..sepupu aku adik ira wat..sedap gak..and spend satu hari main zoo tycoon ngan irfan..budak nih...cakap melayu tak paham..pastuh ade slang omputih..kene cakap omputih baru paham..apelah acu nih..camane jaga anak??? pengaruh barney and frens la tuh..main zoo tycoon..monkey and tiger tau..tapi monyet ngan harimau ta paham..rosak budak nih! rosak!!!!

apepon..sangat seronok...:) hepi betul..:)....perut pon dah tambah..baru raya kedua nih..ya tuhan..selamatkan perut aku..amiinnnnnn...

i am so in love with zee avi

2011-08-30T23:44:00.001+08:00

the borneo songbird..the beautiful borneo girl..thank you god for ur voice...so soothing, so calming..i smile everytime i hear you sing..:)

The turtle moves slowly and is happy with his pace of life
The flamingo walks with elegant grace -- she knows she's one of a kind

If you can't stop, at least smile as you go by
If you can't stop, at least smile as you go by
Sometimes, you just gotta know how to feel

The happy crab danced on the beach to a calypso beat
The happy mullet jumps for the pure joy of being alive

If you can't stop, at least smile as you go by
If you can't stop, at least smile as you go by
Sometimes, you just gotta know how to feel

The gator grinned as he dreamed of his next meal
Every good fisherman has a pelican watching over him

If you can't stop, at least smile as you go by
If you can't stop, at least smile as you go by
Sometimes, you just gotta know how to feel

its raya wei tapi ak pening kepala

2011-08-29T19:08:00.005+08:00

Headache..teruk sgt..sampai satu hari asyik tdo ajer.:) demmit!.ayah pon terperuk dalam bilik sebab demam..tadi bukak pose adik2 aje ade...ak memang tak larat nak bangun..addooiilaaaa..however ia takan dapat menghilangkan mood raya harini so..pegi dapur jumpe satu balang kuih batang burok..oh thanks ayah.kuih favourite saya..nyum nyum.:)..so ape lagi duduk la depan TV sambil melahap ( ye saya tak puasa..ehe) dan setel separuh balang..pastuh ade jem tat satu balang..setel suku balang lagi..kalau nak tau umah nie memang hantu kuih..awal2 lagi bapak aku dah sorok biskut kacang lam bilik dia.(takde la sorok tapi dia bawak masuk bilik dia la makan sambil gk dragon ball malam2 kat komputer dia) .maka setel satu balang..kacang goreng pon dah setel setengah balang sambil tgk2 TV..dats why la kuih raya tak bole beli atau buat awal2..umah nie mmg kalau bab makan no 1..:hahha..ok lari topik..cos sbenarnye nak cter pasal raya..

ppl..how u know its raya??

u know tomorrow's raya when:
-ur inbox is full with messages of selamat hari raya..
-ur mom masak rendang macam nak bagi makan satu kampung..
-ur mom suddenly semangat nak buat kek
-the smell of nasi impit and kuah kacang
-adik2 sebuk kemas rumah..
-bunyik mercun berdentum dentum sampai adik menangis dan along menyorok dalam bilik
-fb wall macam kene spam ngan kad raya dan jemputan raya..

so...selamat hari raya kepada semua org islam yang menyambut dan berpuasa selama sebulan nie...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...

statement paling kelakar

2011-08-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

daripada ann:

wak..aku Xjd nk adopt anak mcm kite plan dulu2 weyh..hahaha...:P may b when da time comes kite same2 ready utk jaga anak

hahahahhahahhaha...lawak!!..ak pon tak sanggop lagi..

mom u really are a superhero..maafkan dosa anak mu..T.T

renungan..untuk ak dan kamu

2011-08-28T01:14:00.001+08:00

************************

'Ramai yang mencari cinta tetapi tertipu olehnya,

Ramai yang kecewa kerana cinta dan putus asa pada rahmat-Nya,

Ramai yang membenci cinta dan membenci nyawanya.'

"Cinta yang dicari tanpa melalui Pencipta adalah cinta yang tiada batasnya.

Cinta tanpa batasan hanya cinta sekadar hiburan.

Hiburan yang bukan hanya melalaikan jiwa, menggelapkan hati malah buta pada Pencipta.

Apabila musibah melanda, mula salahkan Tuhan kerana tidak menyedarkan daripada leka.

Hati kita yang lemah, sentiasa digodai nafsu,

sebab itu kita kena berpegang pada sandaran yang kukuh, Allah S.W.T.

Adanya Iman.. apapun cabaran kita tetap mara ke hadapan. Insya-Allah."

****** hanya pada-Mu ******

p/s--ak curi sebijik sebijik dari blog fyrot..hahahhaha..jangan marah ye yunk..i lap u la..suke la plak bace ayat nie..ramai skang nie..konon sayang bole bagi ape saje..konon sayang sanggup wat ape saje..bodoh dan tak kesah maruah keluarga ..tapi semua lupe yang sebenarnye ade lagi org yang berkuasa kat atas yang sering kita lupekan..tak takot kah kita padaNya?? padahal kita dah janji padaNya dari sebelum kita dilahirkan ke dunia ni lagi...

renungan bersama..:)

darlings and sweethearts..love

2011-08-28T01:02:00.001+08:00

Today is again the best day of my life..got to spend it with my sayangs again..the most beautiful people inside and out..im bless to know u guys..

Today we give back to society..we volunteered in becoming pilot and co pilot to bring orphans kids for hari raya shopping..

Thanks to kak sherry yang organized benda nie...ini tahun kedua ia dijalankan..so semoga ada lagi tahun depan..kalau rezeki banyak..bole belanja besar lagi untuk anak2 dan adik2 nih..:)

sayangs pilot and co pilot:-

1.shikin ghazali and yoora fyrot-reben putih....ko sorang je putih ikin..hehhee

2.she can si and ann farhanah- reben ungu

3.bayan and me -reben unggu

every pilot and co-pilot each is given a kid for them to go shopping with... and me and bayan, we got two boys, 7 and 8 years old..name iman and nizam...

ann and s.i got 1 boy and 1 girl..farouk and anis

tapi ikin ngan fyrot tak tahu plak nama ape..tapi dua2 budak pompuan huhuhu..

kami diberi reben ungu konon nak lead jalan tapi last2 takde sape nak ikot pon..semua bantai u-turn, tapi jalan dah betul da..so agak touching..di situ ye..tapi yang penting..kami sampai dulu..itula sape suh tak yakin..hehe

moral of the day :1. moms are superhero..bawak budak jalan2- 3 jam pon rase nak pengsan..
2. Ann akan jadi ibu yang garang..:p..hahahhahaha

the wonderful day is captured by all those photos taken..so guys..here there are :

anak ak yang pakai baju merah tue..hensem sket..hehhee

anak ann, kecik je budak nih..parat lutut mak dia je..

masuk lam trolley, sorong, tak payah la nak berlari lari ke..kang ilang susah...

anak s.i

anak fyrot ngan ikin..

next time kite wat lagi cani ye syg???..sape2 yang rase aktiviti camni cam tak menarik..sila muhasabah diri..ngarot2 bole..benda cani..langsung tak interested..haish..nasib bek ann cakap dia nak join..so semangat terus membuak nak ikot gak...thanks ann for telling and kak sherry for inviting and bayan for piloting..huhuhuhu..:)

the end....

now u understands..

2011-08-28T00:23:00.004+08:00

paham pon..annoying tue ape kan..bila org nak tdo kau mekak2..esp..time tgh pening....hahahahhahahahahahhahahaha...

revenge is sweett.

INFNAST

headache and annoyed

2011-08-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

headache + annoyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeedddddddddd...really a.n.n.o.y.e.d...!..kalau tak pening kepala maybe boleh sabar sket lagi...usually sabar jer...

nasib bek besok ade hal..im going to do good things with my gfs..:)..

giving back to ppl and society..such a rewarding thing to do..at least i can say that i've done something good for others in my life...

im so bless for this..i am surrounded by good ppl and frens..i choose to be surrounded by them..guys!!! its time to filter out your acquantainces...:)..ok..ini dah masuk topik lain..wassalam..huhuhuh

p/s-mak ak pon pandai ajak gado2 malam..

i wont be there

2011-08-26T16:13:00.001+08:00

this song can relate to so many things..from a runaway teenage kids to etc etc etc (hehehe) .simple plan is so awesome

u are the epitomy of everything that is..

2011-08-26T13:47:00.002+08:00

stubborn-ness and foolishness...haisshhhh

so s**k kelantan

2011-08-26T13:46:00.001+08:00

what the hell is cakap KL?? ak pun confused gak mek..hahahhaa

diorang yang merosakkan bahasa..wtf?? so s**k kelantan....

never let my path cross some of them yang terlampau assabiyah sgt..i cannot stand!!...*&@#!;%%^^$$

kualitinya harie..

2011-08-24T20:21:00.002+08:00

harini tdo satu harie..hahahahha

mirul, bayan aten and fiza kol pon tak angkat..sorile tayunk2..i takde kedit..malas nak top up..hahahhaa..

mirul da balik sembn...so leh la jumpe dia..and sabtue nie mau bawa anak2 yatim..pg shopping raye...saya akan jadi co-pilot bayan...:)

faces that makes me feel so "gay"

2011-08-24T01:32:00.004+08:00

Whoever do not understand the meaning of gay..refer to dictionary..old english term gay means ape sila cari..ak malas nak explain..sape yang tak paham tapi takmo google..pleasse dun be a loser..hahha...ok now..

all the pictures below are those people that would make me feel so "gay" just by looking at them..terloncat loncat ngan penuh ke-excited tann nye..bile nampak mereka....so here..mereka adalah setiap manusia kesayangan dalam hati saya..saya harap mereka juga akan sgt "gay" bile dapat berjumpe saye.tambah lagi apabila lama tak berjumpe...hehehe..perasan..

i dun care wether u guys "gay " ato tak bila jumpe dan lihat wajah saya..tapi u guys are the source of my "gay ness" most of the time in my whole miserable life...

MY BFF-kalu korang hilang..sumpah ak tak cari lain, ak jadi anti sosial..

comel plak bile kau bertudung kan efa

mirul tesayang
MY PARTY MATE

OMG comelnye kau ninaa...hahahahahahahha..pecah perut ak camnie..hahhaa

SAYANGS..:)

eqin and bestfrennye fae

MANDRAKE

ika, wani and diea...

SENIOR

kak azue-thanks all those advise
SAYANGS..:)

S.i yang gile..:P

DARLINGS

darlink feyo, nobie and ana-botak..feyo!! bali apecer??

GEOLOGIST

pelajar geo gile2

SAYANGS

sayangs..:)

mek...syara and bayan..:)....ain ak taching lagi sebab hritue tak ikot..so takmo letak gambo dia..hehehhehehhee

yang nie..mac d and zaattiieee...oh i how i miss thee..im coming to melaka for this raye zatie..t ak singgah uma ko k..macd tak dapek la jauh sgt..hak hak hak

saje nak letak gamba nie..4 tahun yang lepas..huuu

aten and zatie..sengal nak mampos..kah kah kah..

mahran bile mau shopping rayer lagi?? alololo...anak emak

yuny, muny and kak ara...fieldwork..raye haji dua tahun lepas..

zaffyy and yuny..rawa island..nak pg lagi..:(

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Dats it..:)

why i love you-avril is a genious

2011-08-22T08:56:00.004+08:00

I like your smile

I like your vibe

I like your style

But that’s not why i love you

And I, I like the way

You’re such a star

But that’s not why I love you

Hey

Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel, too?

Do you need, do you need me?

Do you need me?

You’re so beautiful

But that’s not why I love you

I’m not sure you know

That the reason I love you is you

Being you

Just you

Yeah the reason I love you is all that we’ve been through

And that’s why I love you

I like the way you misbehave

When we get wasted

But that’s not why I love you

And how you keep your cool

When I am complicated

But that’s not why I love you

Hey

Do you feel, do you feel me?

Do you feel what I feel, too?

Do you need, do you need me?

Do you need me?

Even though we didn’t make it through

I am always here for you

You’re so beautiful

But that’s not why I love you

And I’m not sure you know

That the reason I love you is you

Being you

Just you

Yeah the reason I love you is

all that we’ve been through

And that’s why I love you

malam terbaik

2011-08-21T20:46:00.001+08:00

ak dah lama tak rase heppi gile..seronok yang best..bersama kawan2 yang betul sahabat..

semalam, ak jumpe sayangs..buke pose kat steamboat senawang..alhamdulillah..sedap gile

mereka berjaya buat ak ketawa sampai pecah perut serta makan sampai pecah perut..habis diet ak ..spoil la korang nih..

lets pic shows how fun it all was..the most amazing night i ever had..the most beautiful people i ever know..nside and out..

my mek..:)..kene sound semalam..lain kali cter je la...ak tanye jawap ok, zac tanye jwb ok..pastuh deactivate fb..ingat kitorang tak leh agak ke kenapa..hahahha

ikin asyik duduk je..bak kata s.i..hahhaa

sumpah ak sayang korang..next event..adalah raya pulak..jumaat di area semban umah sayangs and melaka sabue..:)

lauk pauk

2011-08-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today bukak pose-

Tempoyak pucuk paku
Sup Tulang
Gulai Telor
Lala Sambal
Kerabu Mangga
Paru goreng
Rendang ayam..

alhamdulillah..burp!

tak perlu pon korang lam hidup ak

2011-08-21T20:23:00.002+08:00

kalau dulu ak yang cari kau kol tanye buat ape..2-3 bulan tak lepak kol tanye kau kat mana..

now..sampai ak mati hidop semula pon ak takkan...

ak tak penah begantung kat kau, ak tak kesah langsung..tak perlu..

p/s-kenapa semua org yang ak xsuke nama stat dari A ek?? hahahha...masuk nih dah 3 org..

songs change mood and perception

2011-08-18T10:51:00.004+08:00

adele..someone like u

its a good song when u are sad, and want to let go and run away..but when u are good and holding on it makes u feel sad and think about all those bad memories and letting go and run away again..aiiyyoooo...terganggu weh..

never mind la..this is another song that i used to listen to i when i feel like running away..

Don’t lie and say that it’s okay
It’s alright yeah, there’s nothing more to say

So I’m running away, I’m leaving this place
Yeah I’m running away, I’m running away

Don’t tell me I’m the one to blame
It’s too late for you to make me stay
No I won’t stay

so I’m running away, I’m leaving this place
yeah I’m running away, I’m running away

Faster than you can follow me from this lonely place
Farther than you can find me I’m leaving,
Yeah I’m leaving today

No I’ll never let you find me
I’m leaving you behind with the past, no I won’t look back
And I, I wanna hear your reasons
I wanna hear you tell me why I should stay
And try, try to understand me
Try to understand what I say when I say I can’t stay
And I, I’m moving on from this place
Leaving and I won’t when I’m running away

Now I’m running away, I’m leaving this place
Yeah I’m running away, I’m running away

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I want done after I die.
I most definitely want this song played.
I want everyone to think of me finally getting to run away.

I’ll be gone, away from this place.
And I want everyone to know that
I’ve finally ran away and am away from all that makes me sad,
Away from all that hurts me,
Away from my broken heart.
Imagine me running away, and know that I’m finally free.

what is this??

2011-08-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

i dun know what it is..but i dun feel good..tak sedap hati..jantung rase nak tercabut..like something bad is happening..i dun know what..omg....istighfar banyak2..oh my god.

what is this?? what is this..

p/s-usually when people dun tell u something, its either something bad or something stupid and embarassing.. i hope its not either one.

hari menarik

2011-08-15T20:08:00.003+08:00

jumpe mamat india yang annoying dan membencikan..pastuh spend sehari berborak ngan macd and mahran on the phone..weeeiii cpt la dtg KL..rindu gile..mac d sengal..laju je balik jngka kan..aiisshhhh

german deli imbyss

2011-08-14T16:48:00.002+08:00

ramadhan buffet..any1 up for it?? jom!!!

hidup ini penuh tanda tanya dan misteri

2011-08-14T13:45:00.003+08:00

yerp..banyak soklan yang kita tak boleh nak jawab sendiri dan remain as mysteries...like..

kenapa kau cari ak?? is it really sebab nak berbaik? or like every1 says it u are just using me??

nak kuar ngan kengkawan kau, but u have dont have a place to stay, so u come looking for me?? or u just want someting for me..maybe revenge is sweet?? i have no idea..shud i ask her directly on sms?? hahaaha

or ak je yang paranoid??..she really is not like that?? ..i know how ego she is, dat is her way of saying im sorry, lets be cool again.. shud i trust myslf?? or ..shud i trust what every1 says??

tapi soklan yang paling misteri untuk minggu nih ialah..mane pergi makanan along??? sekali ngan bekas2 dia ilang...gila!..takkan ade kucing lain curik ngan bekas2 dia?? or ade org lain ke makan frieskies lam umah ni??? hahahahhaa..lawak nak mampos...

p/s-kawan2 jom masak..nak makan ape ek malam nih..:)

sahur2 dah kene marah..:(

2011-08-13T17:32:00.006+08:00

"awak buat la ape awak nak, asalkan awak bahagia...org cakap awak tak mau dengar..lepas nih tak mau nasihat lagi!!!."

haishhhhh..sahur2 je da kene marah..ye laaa...nanti org tukar nombor ...isshhhhh

p/s-akak ingat senang ke??

harini sgt hepppii

2011-08-12T12:43:00.001+08:00

so happy..

thanks la akak..

thank u so much..

i love u too...mmg tak reti nak cakap depan2 pon...so tulis post for u..

nanti sahur kita jumpe yer...:)

ending

2011-08-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

every bit of love that lingers here, every bit of trust, every bit of respect..

its lost now.

The. End.

lets remove youtube vdeo yang ak wat tue..bodoh giler!!!

why??

2011-08-11T21:05:00.009+08:00

Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone... Too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong".

why?? i also have no idea..i'm also suffering from this disease..maybe its cos we are human..humm

humm..ttibe teringat..:(..demmittt..

p/s--few more random quotes i found:

"im selfish, impatients and a little insecure.i make mistakes and i am out of control and at times hard to handle, but if u cant handle me at my worse, u sure as hell dont deserve me at my best "-marilyn monroe

" there is a little truth behid every just kidding, a little knowledge behind every i dont know, a little emotion behind every i dont care and a little pain behind every i'm okay""

'don't let someone wait too long. just because they will"

"people say you cant live without love..i say oxygen is more important"

"learn to appreciate what you have, b4 time make u appreciate what you had"

smiley dayy

2011-08-11T17:23:00.001+08:00

baru balik teman fiza yang jiwa kacau berjalan jalan di mid valley.sabar la ye..dugaan je..ape yang penting positive!! hahah..kuat kan diri..:)..

.kejap lagi mau ke bazar pula bersama fyrot..buke puase together..nyummyyy...mau makan ape hari ni ek??..ade idea??

update: hari makan kurma ayam + nasi minyak..
ice lemon tea
putu bambu
apam balik..

p/s- fyrot tak pose....tak malu betul...hahahahah..pastu penat2 jalan gi bazaar makan apam balik je..podah chiittt!!!!!

OMG OMG

2011-08-11T13:35:00.007+08:00

gosip2..ak dah tau cter sebenar..sumpah!! harap muke cantik gila tapi slutty...omg..teruknye perangai..malunye, dahla melayu..

iamgine kalau cine cakap :
ta elok org islam perangai serupa macam tu

jaga laa

kita pompuan

ta elok kuar malam ngan laki

inikan pulak bawak masuk

tido lagi

berdosa

kamu pon di kira subahat

AMIK KAU !

malunye....oh mai goddd...kalau ak jadi kau lah..ak dah tutup muke dah..kene tegur depan2 gtue..hak hak

ak cam tak percaya gak..tapi ak rase dia capable untuk wat bende tuh..yelah..imagine la kalau kau bole biar kawan kau kebulur, hilang tak balik2..balik subuh2.tak mesej tak kol..sebab laki...haish..tak fikir betul..patotlah takde kawan pompuan..jumpe laki je terkinja-kinja cam beruk....haish macam2 hal....

and satu lagi..tak payah bertudung kalau nak berperangai macam tue..wat malu je..

ape yang saya cuba sampaikan disini ialah...tak semua pompuan bertudung tuh baik okeyh..so jgn tertipue...

woot woot..jom bantu!!

2011-08-11T01:27:00.003+08:00

shutter island sgt best..:). ya bru tgk tadi..best gile..sorila saya memang ketinggalan zaman sikit..kah kah..ok sori..sebenarnye post ni adlah lebih bermakna daripada nak cter pasal shutter island..

oright bebeyh..important news.dapat tweet dari kak sherry...sempena bulan ramdhan nie ape kata kita membantu golongan anak2 yatim...macam mana??

everybody konvoi shopping raya untuk rumah asnaf murni akan dijalankan pada 27 ogos nih..
dijalankan kat jusco seremban 2..

sape yang mampu bole la membantu sebanyak rm 100 untuk membeli barang keperluan hari raya,kita mencari seramai 40 tajaan..kalau lebih, duit lebih akan digunakan untuk membeli tilam bagi anak2 nie..rumah nie juga ade menempatkan ibu tunggal sekali..kalu tak kita juga memerlukan bantuan sumbangn kenderaan untuk bawa mereka shopping jugak.bayaran tol adalah lebih kurang rm 7.20 sen untuk seremban ke KL sehala..minyak lebih kurang rm 30-40 ataupun kurang bergantung kereta yang anda pakai...uhm marilah membantut rakan2..bole la kita berjumpe di sana ek..:)

walau sesusah mana pon hidup kita, ingatlah ade lagi org yang lebih malang dan susah berbanding kta.Jadi sempena bulan ramadhan yang mulia nie jom kita bantu mereka, sedikit sebanyak boleh menambah senyuman dan kecerian di wajah anak2 dan ibu2 tunggal ini..sayangs...jom!!!...meh2..

ape2 bole bace di http://www.weheartall.org/

ataupun sape2 yang ade fb bolela..tgk..www.fb.com/weheartall

jom lah membantu..kak sherry adalah moderator dan penganjurnye..ape2 bole tgk website tue ha...

p/s-and i also just got a tweet bahawa budak2 ini mencari ak di fb..new hayat 41 group sedang ditubuhkan..addoooii..kawan2 ak da deactivate..nak kontek adalah melalui email, phone, blog atau twitter okeyh....ciao..i think ade beberapa kerat yang follow ak kat blog nih..so alleerrtt plleaasee..wah tetibe rase macam selebriti plak..kah kah *tetibe*

haish..middle men..i hate!!

2011-08-10T22:54:00.005+08:00

another middle person..by anonymous plak tuh..acting like a know it all.dey tambi..not helping la wei..hahha...what to do..its life...just bear with it..)..its so funny..

today is a good day...bukak pose ngan fiza, after buke ngan kak azue...and then we talk and talk and talk..kerja dan kerjaya..dia mau sambung ph.d.demm math industry degree, enginnering design master and electrical engeneering PhD..gila..genius.hidup pelajar MRSM kem terendak melaka, yeah!!!!!!..hahha...adoi.jeles..nak sambung master gak lah camni!..hummm...mcm2 masalah kat dunia ni ek..ok lah akak..."lets start a new life"..have a sleep over la..we figure out something fun to do k..

and now is waitng for aten..where the hell are u? dah pukul 11 malam dah nie woi!! &%$@#!$#..hahahha..

all and all a good day...there is a light at the end of a tunnel after all...huhuhuhu..and sayangs punye reunion is on the 20th august, i cant wait to see u all..salu kuar seketul, seketul..susah betul nak jumpe ramai2..oh and sharp and nur sori la tadi ak kuar, nanti la tunggu macd and diba, adda sekali kita lepak ramai2..yong pon ..gak..buke pose same2 ye..huhuhuhu..serbu umah diba and kita kutuk dan seksa kucing dia yang hodoh tue..

also in this post nak congragulate madeehah rasid, azie, aiza, lydia and asnidar zina ali cos dapat sambung master kat uitm and um both in GIS and petroleum.hidup pelajar SBP...ak bangga ngan korang la..next yer turn ak plak k..:)

p/s-amek kau semua benda crammed lam satu post..hihihi

two dates

2011-08-10T16:29:00.004+08:00

harini ade dua janji temu..

buke pose with fiza

after buke pose with kak azue..

i cant wait to meet u la kak azue..there is so many things i want to share with you..:) thanks for coming anyway.wei .mahran!!! mane kau, ni azue ade datg.. jom buke same..it will be like last year..fun kan??? tak semayang terawih pg karoke..hahahha..

oh i got new quote from ct suhaili hamasaki : i dont need certain number of frens,just som frens i am certain off..uhm..nicely said...uhm..lets filter out...huuuuuuu

p/s-shud i be doing one post in portuguese language to to practice my language skills....dah lama tak cakap..and madm christiana cessimiro pon dah nak pindah macao this week...i shud do a portuguese post in her memory..uhmm...

home sweet home

2011-07-23T09:57:00.000+08:00

today after 3 weeks...nak balik umah..

wait for me everybody..

jaga kau along, ak nak ramas2 perut kau..muahahahahahaha....

haishh..why ahad kene keje?? dapat tdo semalam je kat umah..haishhhhhhhhhh..

okay, im off...if any non reply text or unpick up phone call..well what do u expect?? i'm homeee....:)

sorang lagi sahabt pulang kerahmatullah

2011-06-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

al fatihah kepada muhd syazwan.Bekas pelajar MRSM Terendak yang telah pulang dijemput oleh pencipta nya, Semoga rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 beriman.

kepada grunge, pemergian mu akan sentiasa ditangisi dan akan sentiasa didoakan oleh sahabat2 yang ada....

Tak dapat pulang ke seremban sebab ade urusan lain..hanya boleh sedekahkan yassin dari jauh aje..:(

terima kasih juga pada para sahabat yang sentiasa memberitahu tentang kesihatan arwah sebelum ni, memaklumkan arwah berada di hospital semua..marilah kita sama2 berdoa untuk sahabat kita ini..

karma

2011-05-20T13:19:00.002+08:00

karma goes a long way buddy..tak selamat keturunan kau..maybe kau pon syaitan, sebab perangai bapak kau..hohoho..

p/s..u mess with the wrong sista...keep running away chicken shit!!

consider me gone..

2011-05-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

Verse: 1
Every time i turn the conversation to something deeper than the weather i can feel you always shuttin' down.
And when i need an explanation for the silence you just tell me you don't wanna talk about it now.

Bridge: 1
What you're not saying is coming in loud and clear we're at a crossroads here...

Chorus:
If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone

Verse 2:
With you i've always been wide open like a window or an ocean. there is nothing i've ever tried to hide.
So when you leave me not knowin' where you're goin' i start thinkin' that we're lookin' we're lookin' at goodbye.

Bridge 2:
How about a strong shot of honesty don't you owe that to me...

Chorus:
If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone.

Consider me a memory.
Consider me the past.
Consider me a smile in an old photograph someone who used to make you laugh.

If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
Then i guess we're done let's not drag this on.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Just consider me gone

sahabat selamanya

2011-05-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

Dua tiga kapal berlayar di samudra
Ayo sahabatku kita bergembira
Bermain bernyanyi bersama menikmati indahnya dunia

Karena Sahabat untuk selamanya
Bersama untuk selamanya
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanya setia

Berakit-rakit kita kehulu
Berenang-renang kita ketepian
Kita berbeda untuk saling mengisi
Segala kekurangan kita

mencari Sahabat untuk selamanya
Atasi semua perbedaan
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanyaa¦ Selamanya setia

Sahabat untuk selamanya
Berbagi dan saling menjaga
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanyaa¦ Selama-lamanyaa¦ setiaa¦

beautiful song...:)..i miss u guys..:(

nak ikot mane satu

2011-05-10T15:01:00.001+08:00

kenapa mulut kata A tapi dalam hati kata B

nak ikot yang mna satu????

i need you now

2011-05-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

someone like you-adele

2011-05-10T14:27:00.000+08:00

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

black and blue

2011-05-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

And I've been meaning to say this to you.
My heart isn't black and blue anymore
And your words don't mean a thing
When they're sung in vain

Maybe I was wrong
I only remember feeling so alone

This isn't were I meant to lay down
But you dug this grave
Fits me perfectly

And if you're asking if I'm over love
You're a fool to believe
That you gave me some

It's been raining here like it never should
And I can't help but believe it's because you're coming
And if a child wants to run away and a child wants to
hide
Oh, don't come following your fantasy,
Cause you might be surprised she'll run right back
inside

Maybe I was wrong
I only remember feeling so alone

This isn't where I meant to lay down
But you dug this grave
Fits me perfectly

And if your asking if I'm over love
You're a fool to believe,
You're a fool to believe that you gave me some.

asyik2

2011-05-08T21:22:00.001+08:00

asyik2 nak marah2..asyik2 nak marah2..:(

l.i.a.r

2011-05-05T11:26:00.004+08:00

such a liar..what do u expect me to do??calm down and senyum2.. it's my right to be mad, to be angry, to feel betrayed, to fell like being stab...like u fucking care..cos u dont!! and dont act like you do..